Welcome to my blog-hoop-world! I hope to fill this blog to positive, empowering and inspirational messages for hoopers around the world. Also some of the more challenging aspects about the reality of hooping as a professional. May I grow into a bigger, brighter self from this endeavor and may you hear exactly what you need to take your life and hooping to the next level! Here we go world -- the complete uncensored Christabel!

Life is miraculously wonderful for me now, but honestly overwhelming. I've got 2 marriages on my plate, as well as a commercial shoot in South Africa, an exploding internet business, an unfinished instructional video, a new performance troupe, various teacher trainings and classes and much, much more. It is too much for one woman to handle! Days pass so quickly. I rise at 6:30 and go to the gym, then somehow end up sitting at my computer working on what feels like ridiculous detail oriented administrative work for hours, until I leave to do errands, hoop or teach. Then back, always back to this computer drawn by some invisible umbilical cord to check on customer inquiries, gigs and more. Day after day is passing this way. I'm hungry for some self nourishment, some play time and some reflection. There are bigger projects that need my attention and I keep getting distracted.

I'm at a point where I realize I cannot continue on as things have been before. I realize I must grow and I am feeling some resistance. I need help-- administrators, teachers, business advisors and more, as my company is growing and expanding. My original business plan has been fulfilled. Now I need to take it to the next level.

I ask divine Source for some healthy space in my life to grow and fulfil my highest potential. I pray with gratitude for all the wonderful resources and divine assistance already on it's way to me at light speed! The perfect people are coming into my life who can help my life's work expand for the benefit of humanity. I know I am never given more than I can open to recieve. I pray for clarity about my direction, knowing that all is well in my world and that there is a divine, perfect plan unfolding. I can relax, knowing that Source is handling all the details.

Phew! I feel better just writing down those words! Prayer is such a powerful tool for me in centering myself. The challenge is, sometimes when you are in the middle of "overwhelm", it is hard to remember to do it! A book called, ASK AND IT IS GIVEN, has really been helping me remember how to slow down and connect.

Hoopdance is such a wonderful, delicious and sensous path to a feeling of connection. It's so ironic that the more my business has grown, the less time there is to do the very thing I am so passionate about! I must find a way to attract divine support into my life to handle everything that distracts me from my lifework.

Universe! I am asking you for immediate and powerful assistance in handling all the goodness sweeping into my life! I am full of thankfulness for the abundance of positive opportunities, people and experiences. I breathe in a feeling of relaxation and peace, knowing that you are already providing for every need. I inhale deeply and smile, knowing that my clarity is magnetically attracting individuals into my life who can help me serve the world and my own potential in the highest way. Thank you!

It is so important to have an agent! I have been negotiating with a commercial gig in South Africa over the past week and it has been a bit intense. If I simply had a representative from an agency negotiating on my behalf, I wouldn't have to guestimate at how much I should get paid for this and that... it is foreign to me. While i have negotiated performances in other countries, never a commercial project for European TV. I don't know the going rate or my rights, though my girlfriend Sass did give me some idea of what to bargain for.

When you are negotiating on behalf of yourself, your hopes soar and then plummet as details seem to change at every moment. Communication is tough since London is is a very different time zone... 7 or 8am is usually when I get calls or emails from them.

They actually want me to fly out of Reno on monday following Burning Man (after my Burning Man wedding) and fly me directly back to Connecticut the following wednesday so I can make my second wedding ceremony on the Saturday following. It is nuts! I'm worried that Kramer (my fiancee) thinks I care more about my career than him. I'm worried that I may be placing too much value on this opportunity and letting it distract me from a very precious and wonderful time in my life.

Marriage. WOW. No longer putting yourself first in all things.

As a hoopdancer who has always longed to break into the commercial sector, I feel compelled to jump at this opportunity. A commercial! The commercial work is where the true financial compensation is. I've been busting my butt for 5 years to get where I am. At the same time, what is more important? Career success and money, or love? Why do such wonderful opportunities always seem to come at the same time?

I give thanks and gratitude to the Universe for all the wonderful gifts which I am blessed to recieve. Thank you!!! I know that clarity about the perfect course of action is on it's way to me. I know that opportunities are limitless, abundant and overflowing in my life. I make my decisions from love and a feeling of connection to the Divine. I relax and breathe deeply, knowing that all is well and all will be well in my world and in my new blissful journey as a life partner and wife. I am happy and energized by my confidence. The perfect realization is coming to me at the perfect moment. I make decisions from a place of serenity, connection and trust.