Meanwhile every day it seems my awareness bumps up a notch. Awareness of being one aspect of a soul in a human host-body, with other aspects living simultaneously across time and space. I have this sudden interest in past lives, realizing that past lives are not neccesarily in the "past", realizing that there could have been some lessons learned that I am unconsciously repeating and/or simultaneously learning all at once. Remembering that the "I" in "who am I" could be as multifaceted as a gem... with many more "who"s, "am"s and "I"s than I can even begin to imagine!

Having moments of crystalline awareness of contracts - loving agreements my soul has with others temporarily in other humans around me ~ agreements from before incarnation which are being carried out... sometimes through pain, sometimes through pleasure.

These agreements help me awaken, speak more truth, love and live more deeply and feel the joy. I keep reminding myself that awakening can be pleasurable if I allow it, but then I forget and get cranky or agitated by these human emotions or the trash truck waking me up at 6am when all I want to do is sleep. I float along for a few more days, oblivious to the eternal reality which is unfolding through and around me and there I am again, on autopilot.

Then suddenly, it could be a drop of rain on my face, a word someone walking by me says, the name of a book on a shelf, a movie... and kazaam I am wide awake again, blinking and wondering what the heck had I been thinking to have been so afraid .... my life swings on the continuum between love and fear... and just when I think I am living in the love for sure again, that's when I look away from the homeless person begging for money and feel a bit of disgust rise up and then think, who the heck am I to think I know shit about shit? I can't even look at this homeless person and see God in their eyes! Life is a trip. Meditation helps.

So tonight I was talking to my angels. I just sat down on the couch and decided to have a heart to heart. I sang their names and just let the hair start to stand up and the tingles surge through my body and figured that meant something was happening, so I just jumped in and talked to them like they were my therapists.

First I told them they have absolute permission to inhabit every microsecond of my life, in every precious moment, from now until always. Just wanted to roll out the welcome mat so they knew it was a-ok to just BE here with me all the time until I could wake up my superconsciousness one day to just know we are all ONE.

I kept staring at the ceiling, just chatting away about feeling overwhelmed lately and asking for some help... requesting massive Divine flocks of angels to just show up and provide support at a phenomenal level. I said I was ready for it to be easy and fun...

I also took a moment to give some super big THANKS for all the downloads that have been happening lately. So much has been coming through, like floodgates which have broken open, and I am so grateful! So many ideas, so much hooping, so much juicey spirit knowledge. I told them how I see things unfolding... and asked for a more Divine and perfect vision that would allow the highest good for all.

I asked for guidance, most of all, on being a more perfect vessel for light and love. I asked for a greater awareness of how I can transmit positivity to more people on an even larger scale than I could even imagine. Also, asking how can I purify the message so it can be more absolute? How can I distill, focus and alchemize all this soul awakening realization into a crystal clear something that I can share in a Divinely perfect way? For me... hooping is the path, not the destination. Hooping is taking me to this next step. Hooping is my chariot and my guide all wrapped up in one. I am so open and ready amplify living my life mission at an even higher, more fine and magnificent frequency!

So chit-chatting away here with the archangels and all the beings of light which I like to imagine accompany me on this human journey.. and I asked, how can I share this all with the world. Here I am, holed up in my small apartment in San Francisco with a monsoon happening outside and how can I connect to that crystalline grid -- that etheric connective tissue created by those holding the highest frequencies here on the planet. So I heard a pretty distinct inner suggestion that said, quite practically, "ok honey, why don't you just start with the world wide web?" Kind of took the dramatic orchestra music out of my high vibe new age vision, but I figured, what the heck. Sometimes I just have to laugh at myself! So here it is.