I've been reading this amazing book lately by Jane Roberts, the woman who channeled the Seth writings beginning in the 1970's. It is called, "The OverSoul Seven Trilogy" and is a compilation of the the 3 fictional accounts of an Oversoul while he assists the lives of 4 humans in different historical times simultaneously, while also following is own soul growth. While many metaphysical buffs may have read this when they were 14 or so, it is my first time through and I have to say, extremely eye opening! It gives an actual story to illustrate many of the ideas I have been reading about lately which can sometimes feel a bit abstract.

The big issue of the first book is TIME and basically how it either really works or doesn't fully exist in any way which I have believed. The idea is still slippery in my mind, but the basic premise is that the past, present and future each have their own past, present and future which effects the the other times at the same time. Crazy, huh? I am also especially enjoying how the lifetimes all overlooked by the same soul all seem to have certain parallel experiences and actually have moments of connection either through dreams or being in the same place but at different times, etc. It also helps me grasp how a potential hierarchy of beings can help eachother grow to new levels, and actually I had never really thought of my own soul continuing it's own learning, in addition to my spirit, and moving on to the next level.

Perhaps most mind blowing to me, however, is how the theory of genetic mixing of higher evolved beings with cavemen was presented within the ancient lifetime... and following the expansion of her human cognitive level as a result. The technology of the Speakers, as they are called, revolves around how images and shapes actually contain inherent sounds, which transmit energy and knowledge instantaneously. This particular lifetime and the advanced architectural "secret" city created by the higher beings was fascinating and presented in a way which I realized actually opened my mind to the idea of so called, "aliens" being on earth at different historical points.

It was yesterday as I was sittiing down to a delicious meal at Cafe Gratitude that it really hit me. I thought of the Pyramids in Egypt and for the first time in my life, I actually fully entertained the idea in a rational way that they may have been built by a higher order of beings. If you had asked me about so called "aliens" and ancient monuments in the past, I would have laughed you silly. But it actually does resolve the issue of historical impossibilities. When I lived in Engalnd for 4 months during college, I remember learning about Stonehenge and Avebury and feeling a block. Basically, their presence was impossible, given the means of the people at the time who supposedly "built" them. Absoluetly. But I came up against a block in my mind with no ability to concieve any other solution. I guess when I thought about "aliens" before, I simply thought of movie and popular media representations... the skinny little guy with the bug head and eyes who abducts people to flying spaceships and does wierd experiments on them and such. My images have always been of super strange, potentially violent, outlandish stuff which was scarey, so I never even gave it a second thought. But my recent interests in consciously evolving starbeings who have historically helped humanity to evolve awareness and love through one-on-one and group guidance... God even writing this I feel a bit off the deep end... but really, I am just realizing there is much more possible than I ever believed.

Another realization I had throughout the day was about babies. I realized how magical the female body was, specifically the utereus as it provides a place where a reincarnated spirit can actually come in and join a new baby... I started thinking about having babies in a new way... thinking about how a spirit could consciously choose to come down with me and my partner to help us grow and learn, and becuase we could help it grow and learn in specific ways... while again I have thought of this before, I never really stopped to consider birthing a reincarnated being with a divine mission, neccessarily (of course ALL babies have divine missions, it is not an exclusive thing). So layer upon layers of realization peeling off... and when thinking about kids in this new way, I realized how lucky I am to be a woman who can actually experience the meeting of spirit and matter within my own body! How little we truely know about everything...

I'm not really sure where all this is going, but I feel an urgent need to keep documenting my thought process for myself. I'm over the world of personal journaling, as I have stacks of journals which lie, unread for years, by anyone. What good did all the effort do to write it if no one is reading them? So even though revealing all these inner workings thruogh blogging may expose me, I feel called to do it.

After the beautiful meal at Gratitude, I took my first solo hike on an unknown trail outside Fairax. The day before I bought a hiking guide to Marin and decided it was high time I start trekking around instead of sticking to "woodsy strolls". I felt quite adventurous with my guidebook and map, setting out solo with water slooshing around in my bottle with every step. It reminded me of Santa Barbara and how hiking was a part of my daily lifestyle there. It felt fantastic. I made a few wrong turns and loops, but Deer Park is a kind forgiving location and there were joggers, hikers and bikers which passed every so often, so I didn't feel totally alone.

The hike actually started in a huge wooded park which had a children's school in it, sheltered by trees and with hiking paths extendind up in all directions. I've never really seen a school smack-dab in a park, but there it was. The school had several gardens with pumpkins and other things growing, kids' art and colorful paintings on the walls, and all I could think was, what a magical place to go to school! For a moment I wondered what it would be like to bring my own child to this place everyday for school and it felt really nice. This was when I started thinking a bit more about the reincarnated children thing I mentioned earlier...

I walkled through an open field, then found a gate to trails and went on my way. What struck me was the smell... I love the smell of the drying grass, the moist dirt and trees. I felt like I could just inhale for days. The air felt so good to breathe. The leaves were gorgeous ... bright yellows, oranges and reds and when the wind blew a beautiful carpet of color would rustle and drirft down to the path. There were so many eco-pockets as well... dry, hot grassy hills, cooler canyons with shady areas and moss covered trees, a redwood grove which was so magical, I just had to stop and hug each tree for a while as I passed, and a remakrable ridge area with fantastic trees which grew multiple trunks out of a single bundle. I remember in SB, when I saw trees like this I called them "Medusa" trees and considered them extraordinary luck. They were EVERYWHERE on this trail... and I even saw one with 15 trunks emerging from the same root bundle. I don't know what kind of super energy or nutrients exists up there, but this felt quite amazing to see. Best of all was just walking, feeling my muscles work during uphill jaunts, looking out at a beautiful series of green mountain slopes in the distance, listening to the sounds of the trees creaking and things rustling the underbrush. Lizards scurrying everywhere and lots of birds. I felt so restored and realized I must be closer to this so I can walk in the woods on a daily basis.

I stopped by the amazing natural food market in Fairfax afterwards and got a raw smoothie and piece of blueberry pie as a treat. YUM! I love this market.. it seriously has all the yummies. On my way out, I checked out with the same checkout guy I have seen in al my 5 or 6 trips up to Fairfax. We chatted again for a moment. By now he knows that I am scouting out the town and as usual, he commented that everyone in Fairfax is happy and kind. He mentioned that compared to all the other Marin towns, many considered it the best because the people there are the most "real" and easygoing. "You really seem like a local" he said. "I feel like one!" I said back. And off I went, driving back to San Francisco with my thoughts...