I began this morning with my blog... then surfing audible.com, randomly listening to large sample chunks of Donald Neale Walsh’s, Caroline Myss, and Sonia Choquette works. Downloaded some new goodies – Trust Your Vibes and Communion with God… after which I realized I seem to be on a reading and listening rampage lately, absorbing so much spiritual writing like a sponge!

I began an overhaul my tribe profile. looking at it or the first time in a long while and realizing, it’s all about ME ME ME and my company, realizing I just couldn’t even relate to it anymore. I realize I created that profile as a business profile, not a Christabel profile, so I started trimming away, hiding some things, adding a few new things that truly represent where I am starting to blossom in my life. I particularly added a very inspirational video, Teachers of the Light which felt good.

Then I packed my book, Lessons from the Light, and headed up north. My gameplan for the day: drive north to Marin County with no destination, explore, eat, wander, then head over to an open house at the Berkeley Psychic Institute, then to a gathering held by a spiritual teacher who was referred to me by someone who reads my blogs (Thea) but whom I have never met. So it definitely felt like an adventurous day! Kramer was wiped from having gotten in at 5am from parties and I was actually glad to be solo so I could immerse myself in the experience.

While driving I laughed and laughed and laughed! I have been doing my laughter practice daily but at interesting times – when I do dishes, while cleaning and while driving. I try to keep it contained at stop lights or when cop cars are nearby so people don’t think I am insane. But as soon as I pass I open my windows again and go for it! It felt absolutely wonderful.

I found myself heading for Café Gratitude in San Rafael, where I luxuriated in the sun while eating a leisurely breakfast. I am devouring this book about Near death experiences. Inspired by Doreen Virtue mentioning such books in her Lightworkers Way, I have been amazed and touched very deeply by these accounts. I almost feel as if I am vicariously learning from these stories about what is really most important in life, and also receiving confirmation about unconditionally loving light being the essence of humans and the universe. It is helping me put together the pieces of the human puzzle of incarnation, and just reading about the NDEs gives me a contact high of love, hearing how the experience can totally transform lives. Meanwhile, my waitress riveted my attention with the following phrase, “we are a transformational school disguised as a restaurant.” It reminded me … life is a transformational soul school disguised as a mortal human experience.

It felt time to wander, so I drove further north to Fairfax. WOW! I love Fairfax. I have a STONG sense that this is where we will be buying a house. I drove along tree-lined streets for over an hour, up high into the mountains with redwoods and yellow-orange October leaves. I was just smiling ear to ear, tripping on the great energy there, the sun shining through the trees, the wonderful houses everywhere… all of it.The green energy felt so fantastic, the view of the mountains was amazing, lots of kids running around in neighborhoods. The natural food store was amazing,uber cruncho-rama in a fantastically gourmet way, vibrant, healthy. Walking down aisles, I distinctly imagined I would be shopping there as a resident of Fairfax in the future. The checkout gentleman said, “Yes Fairfax is wonderful. Everyone seems pretty healthy and happy. Everyone is friendly.” And indeed it felt true, watching people interact and meet up in aisles, hugging, laughing and eating together in a large communal area outside.

Open Secret.. Gathered some more books, which leapt out at me, and realized my self-created curriculum is quite obviously downloading itself to me! I love this process. And on to BPI!

I originally went to Berkeley Psychic Institute over 4 months ago to see a film about the nature of happiness. While visiting, I had decided to get an aura photo, which was puzzling – I couldn’t even see “me” in the picture – it was all white and blue and purple all around. A faculty member looked at it and had said a matter of factly, “oh, you’re a trance medium!” I remember having thought to myself, “yea, right. Whatever that is! Scary.” and on I went with life.

So here I am today at the open house. I got an aura reading and three psychic readings, not really with any expectations. I actually have never gotten any kind of psychic reading in my life, only tarot or astrology from friends. But all of this seems somehow divinely perfect … I got a message the other morning from out of nowhere that I needed to develop my psychic skills, and here I was, at a learning institute for that!

The aura reading: I sat in a chair and a woman came over and started holding her hands out about six feet from my body, palpating the air. I could “feel” her touching me even though she was so far away! A distinct physical sensation. I remarked about it to her, and she said, “yea, your aura is WIDE open.” I asked her what that meant and what she was doing. “Well, when you are that open, you can pick up on other people’s emotions and energy really easy. It can stick to you. Other things which are attracted to you can get in your space as well. I am containing it a bit and bringing it closer to your body, cleaning it up a bit. Visualize it getting closer to your body.” I easily imagined my luminous energy field pulling closer to contain my body. “Wow! That was fast,” she said. Then she said she would read my charkas one by one. She held her hands near each of my energy centers. “You’re very sensitive, huh?” She said with a smile as she continued. When she got to my throat she said, “I am getting a clear message that you need to speak you truth. Speak out! Speak your truth!” I was a bit flabbergasted at how directly this addressed what has been going on for me, but just kept breathing. She then commented that I had some energetic debris, emotional debris from other people stuck to my energy field, very sticky. She cleared it and we imagined it running down an energy stream into the Earth. I walked away feeling revitalized and inspired to speak my truth about my emotions and divine calling!

Then I got in line for 3 mini psychic readings with students and graduates from the program in another room. There were about 10 readers and chairs in front of them where each person sat while getting a reading. From a long list of possible items to get a reading on, I chose: trance-mediumship, angels and past lives.

The first reading was with a blond woman. Mid-thirties, happy, connected, yet calm energy. I noticed her nametag said “Rev.” before her name. Her eyes were closed, but she still emanated a warm energy. She asked me what I wanted to know. I told her about the photo I had taken last time I was there, and wanted to know more about what a trance-medium is, if it is part of my divine life mission to channel and if so, what.

She told me that a trance-medium is someone who can easily leave their body and allow another being to come into their body to transmit information. She mentioned that, however, at this school they train you to stay in your body while transmitting information, which is better. It’s all about staying in the body, she said again in several ways.

Her eyes still closed, she said something about pink and gold energy surrounding me. She smiled and laughed a bit as if genuinely amused (as did the first aura reader randomly while sweeping my aura). I sort of wondered what everyone was seeing that was tickling them when they looked at my energy. Then she said with a smile, “You are a trance-medium, complete naturally! Do you have a family history of this? I said not that I know of at all. She said, “I see a language I don’t understand in a sphere above your head. It is a language of symbols, and they are very, very, very old. You can access an amazing amount of knowledge. It is right there, ready for you to access. You are already 80-90% spiritually open, so that is good. The energy of these symbols is like crystals, perhaps it is Atlantian. It’s got something to do with women, Goddess energy… but there is something bigger there too.. about energy itself.”

I asked her if it was my divine mission to channel something, and mentioned that I have been spontaneously getting that message. She said, that of course all humans are natural channels, but yes, I have this amazing storehouse of knowledge at my fingertips and that if I could learn to manage my energy system it would just flow right through.

I shared with her that I had some fear around all of this. That when I was young I used to feel lots of things, especially after watching ghost movies, staying up at night afraid to go asleep. I mentioned that since I have been getting into angels lately, I realized if there are angels and beings of light, there are probably spirits of people around as well and that that idea scared me. When I was young, I basically shut down any line of thought that even began to consider “ghosts” because it was so scary for me. I found myself crying a bit, really sensing the fear again. My reader smiled and was very reassuring, mentioning that it was all safe and easy to protect yourself through very easy techniques to stay grounded, etc., which they learned at the center.

When the reading was over, she smiled warmly and nodded and said, “I’m excited for you! Congratulations.” She suggested I try out with their meditation class as a primer. I walked away feeling a bit dazed and amazed and slightly overwhelmed by the information revealed. Just earlier today at Open Secret, I had been looking for books on Atlantis, for some reason unknown even to me….

I got back in line for the next reading. A woman came in from behind me to the room, asking if they still needed readers. They quickly had her come in and get ready since there was a long line formed. She had not been in the room before while I was there.

This woman seemed younger, mid-twenties with long dark brown hair and hipster San Francisco fashions. She barely even opened her eyes when I sat down in front of her. I asked for an angel reading. She said I had some powder blue energy about me. She said that I have a lively group of angels who surround me. Again, this reader smiled and laughed for a chuckle or two, then went back to reading. They are small and encircle you. They protect you. They have wings. They are … rowdy in a way, almost mischievous! If you don’t give them an assignment, something to work on for you, they seem to stir things up for you. There is one angel who is like their leader. She has been with you since you were both, her name is Zhana (?). She has a lavender energy with some pink. There is something about Goddess energy. I asked her how I could hear my angels more clearly in “everyday reality” and she said to stay with whatever is my highest creative art. If I strayed from that even a little bit, that flow would not happen. She said, a matter a factly, “since you’re a trance medium you should have no problem channeling that.” She suggested I do some dancing to help out with this process.

My final reading was with another blond woman, thirties again, nice vibes, with some kind of Australian accent. She had some students on each side of her who she seemed to be training. She asked what I wanted to know. I said anything, basically, since I don’t know anything about any of my past lives. She said we would focus on one that has an issue that relates in some way to my life now, which has a lesson.

She smiled and chuckled. (Again!? Whatzup?) You were a man in medieval times. You are not as beautiful as you are in this lifetime. You are large and big boned. You drive a carriage around from town to town and sell your wares, You sell things like knives, leather items, tapestries, and such. You are on the road all the time, always on the move. You are working and traveling all the time. You were very lonely in this life. You always force yourself to keep working, keep moving, and you never let yourself settle down. It was out of survival, or rather you told yourself it was for survival, but it was really because you were afraid. You are very free minded .. a free thinker! It seems like you were afraid to settle down into any small town because you thought you would outgrow their small-minded thinking fast and then be trapped, feel stuck or caught. You can change yourself very, very fast! That makes it hard for people to keep up with you. You felt you would rather stay on the move and sell your wares rather than settle down. You were not willing to take the risk involved in settling down with one woman or in one place. You did love some of the places you visited, and connected with some women, but you forced yourself to stay on the road. You kept yourself controlled.

This relates to now for you because the issue of being settled is up for you now. With your career or relationship, you are almost hesitant to go to a new place. The best advice I can offer is that your Spirit has a larger plan at work. You didn’t learn the lesson in the past life. In this one, you can trust that Spirit has a plan. You can’t know how it will work out, but by surrendering, all will be well. I see a blue courage rose, interesting, I have never seen that before. It seems you have come here today for courage.”

Of course she said much, much more than this, as they all did, but this is the essence which I retained. She asked if I had any more questions and honestly I was so covered in goose bumps and so hyper alert that all I could say was “no thank you.”

This life which she had been describing could have been my life now… all the nuances of how she described it… were issues I am dealing with now! Always being on the road traveling for HoopGirl, visiting lots of places but not allowing myself to connect too deeply, changing so fast in my relationship that I feel stuck and unable to keep moving along the path of my own growth. I got really clearly that I have tried this before and it didn’t work! That I need to do it differently this time around and let go….

I left there feeling certain I will take a class at this Institute and see what emerges…

After this I went to the gathering at Maggie’s, the spiritual teacher referred to me by Thea who reads my blogs…. Amazing, beautiful, light and bright energy.. a wonderful prayer circle for the earth around a firepit, delicious food, learned about her work… then spontaneously went to a concert with some people from there for Shimshaw (sp?) kirtan at Studio Rasa… a wonderful sensation of universal oneness…danced, sang, absorbed … I’m tired now and so very full of knowingness. Off to dreamland… will correct spelling and formatting in the morning…