Miracles abound! I went to an all day angel workshop with Bridget today with no expectations, just an open mind. Driving up into Mill Valley was gorgeous, with the sun bright and luminescent, good clean smelling air and lots of tall green trees. Up and up and up I drove to her wonderful mountainside home. I paded inside and down carpested stairs as I was a few minutes late. Everyone was already gathered and holding hands, getting ready to share intentions for the day. Lots of smiling faces .. about 10 women and 2 men... and that is how it all began.
My intention was "to be able to speak my truth and own my path with courage and to release caring what anyone thinks of me", and the whole day provided endless insights and gifts to help me do just that! We learned many basics about inviting angels into our lives, were introduced to our guardian angels, Archangel Michael, Archangel Gabriel and Metatron, and did lots of meditations and exercises.
Especially wonderous moments for me:
*Essential ingredients of the lightworker's toolbox: breathing, shielding, grounding, vacuuming out fear, cutting cords. It is totally normal for Lightworkers to tend to their energy since they are so sensitive
*If I feel dragged down by other's negativity, I can state several times per day, "I'm not taking on anyone else's energy." (or my turnaround to remove the negative, "I am surrounded by Divine light and protected in my bubble of bliss!")
*All energy is the same. We label it as good or bad and then react to our THOUGHTS about our label!
*Ask the angels for acceptance of others and release the need to fix or heal others. Ask the angels to intervene.
*Hearing that angelic messages are delivered on molecules of oxygen and so the quality of the air we breathe is extremely important ... of course we can hear angels much better near trees and the ocean
*The frequency of gratitude is the same frequency of angels... love!
*I am Clairsentient! I am extra sensituve to energy and I feel messages through my body. Even though I can't "see" angels in everyday reality, I can feel their communication through physical sensations... through squeezes on my body, gut sensations, goosebumps, tingling and more...trust my body sensations!
*Remember that I am always divinely taken care of, but I have to let go and share with the angels as part of my team. If I don't surrender to the divine, the divine cannot get in to give me gifts!
*Meeting My Guardian Angels Meditation*
Meditation of floating on an innertube in sparkling warm water and looking up at clouds, feeling totally safe, relaxed and letting go. Landed on a sandy beach and put on glittering rhinestoned slippers and a thick, luxurious white bathrobe. I wandered through dense tropical foilage with thick green leaves and fantastical, sweet smelling and brightly colored blooms. I walked along this raw, earthy dirt path, the light filtering through the trees, on a path lined by large crystals. Finally, I arrived in a grove with turqoiuse waterfalls and a natural pool with a pulsating rose quartz temple next to it.
As I ascend the stairs of the lumiescent temple, I meet my guardian angels... They are bright energy forms surrounded by rainbows, pulsating out soft pink love energy and shiney sparkling lights like shimmering bubbles. The feeling of their love for me is almost overwhelming -- like 1000x the unconditional love I feel from dogs sometimes. One of them has more green energy. There are matrixes of light blue/whitish light through each and they each come along side me. I ask their names. I hear quite directly Raphael and Emma... I know Raphael is the archangel of Healing so I am a bit confused (I thought archangels were sort of a step above guardian angels) and when I hear the name "Emma" I let go a bit . (I heard this name revealed to me in a dream lately and then the next day found myself in a carpet of white feathers while walking at Stow Lake ... finding a white feather is supposed to confirm angelic presence in your life.. still I doubted the validity of this ... but when I got it again today.... well I let go). Later I hear that archangels can walk by your side as special guardian angels as well so I release even more doubt. I realize how much I have been holding angels at arms length even though I wanted to invite them into my life... my mind always skeptical and analyzing. I released and felt seeds of trust.
Raphael's energy feels soothing, regenerative, like a balm, cooler, more powerful and stately and deep. Emma's energy feels giggly and enthusiastic, nurturing, emanating love, full of excitement, playful .. light and almost sprite-like Very, very simillar energy to my dear friend Dawn Light. The energies were very distinctive, but the rainbow energetic matrixes pulsed through both.
I ask how I can become more aware of angels in my life and get quite clearly, "Move to Marin, connect with other angel lovers and your angels, and follow this new path with trust". Then they hand me the gift of a special mantra to remember... and I giggle because it is the same mantra from our laughter yoga training... "ho-ho-ha-ha-ha!" Basically they are telling me to keep laughing to keep communicating with them! I love it.
Chakra Clearing Meditation
Next we did a chakra clearing meditation with Archangel Michael, during which I got some VERY clear and powerful information. Archangel Michael helps us dispell fear and clarify our life mission. He uses his mythic sword to cut cords of attachement. I felt quite clearly that the fear I have had around speaking my truth is NOT mine! "release and let it go" I felt. It was like an incredible realization in that moment, almost as if I had picked up someone else's fear like lint which stuck to me and gathered more. This deep incredulous realization, knowing quite clearly, "what do I have to be afraid of? Nothing! This doesn't belong to me!". A clear sensation that it was almost some kind of residue that I picked up and wasn't a part of my very essence.
Next we were introduced to Metatron, an archangel who assists with self-esteem who has a strong, blunt, but loving way of communicating. Very direct. We did another meditation, asking what could boost our self esteem and help us embrace our true selves.. again I got very clear and strong communication "write and talk!". As if writing and talking about my beliefs would help me move to the next level of honoring my truth. We were all sharing our experiences afterwards and when I shared mine, Bridget looked at me deeply for a moment and said slowly, "right, and that's your divine mission isn't it?" and she looked at me expectantly. It was very clear to me that she was channeling. It was a very intense moment and I felt my heart squeeze as I said "yes". She only called out one other person that directly throughout the day... it was a strong moment for me.
Next we created two boxes to help us understand how to be aware of when we need to shift our energy (help for which of course we can call upon the angels!) The question to ask ourselves was, "are we above or below the bar?"
UPPER BOX-- POWER--LOVE
confidence, boundaries, joy, courage, happiness, peace, conected, grounded, strong, clearn, inspired, elated, acceptance, enthusiasm, good posture
-----------BAR--------------- **ask for angelic help to move up***
LOWER BOX--VICTIM--FEAR
intertia/stuck, blame, self-pity, doubt, fear, anger, stress, frustration, tension, bitter, depressed, fixing, slouching
Always asking ourselves throughout the day, "what amd I choosing to feel now?" and remembering our own ways to feel powerful again (for me, in addition to asking for angelic help, meditating, ealking in nature, speaking my truth, dancing, drinking water and eating raw food, prayer).
We did another meditation.. I asked for knowledge of the next step for my life mission and got quite clearly from Metatron, "more angel time". Right after this meditation, Bridget went into this talk on how we have to develop a relationship with angels the same way we would cultivate a relationship with friends .. it takes TIME, talking, conversing and conscious interaction. I was pretty blown away, since all of this was echoing the direct message I had just received! Wow!
We went on to explore Michaels guidance to us which Briget channeled which related to only giving problems enough of your time in identifying them and then immediately shifting our focus to creating solutions .. she said that letting our focus dwell on the negative only makes it bigger. While this seems obvious, it was a big aha in that moment... by letting an issue recirculate over and over day after day, we start to create stories about it which give it even more energy.
A good way to do this is to be careful about what kinds of questions you ask yourself... i.e. instead of asking, "why am I stuck here" ask, "how can I embrace the courage to reach my highest potential?" It is amazing how reframing a question can change the whole energetic!
We did another meditation where we let Michael vaccum out any fear which was lodged in our body and then fill those newly emptied spaces with thick, sparkling, healing white light. It was exhilerating. The message from Michael, via Bridget, was that when fear is removed there is room for courage and power, but first all fear must be removed.
We did a fear releasing meditation during which I suddenly saw myself upon a beach in Kauai being a part of an angel retreat of some kind, and then my awareness went right back into the meditation, letting go of fear.
You know, this whole fear thing is quite interesting because I tend to focus on the light and bright and repel the "negative". So when people start talking about "fears" I generally check out because I have not really been aware of having many. It seemed like thinking about them would create something which wasn't even really there to start with. But then we did what was perhaps the most poiwerful exercise of the day where we sat with a partner and each spoke for 5 minutes, uninteruppted, to eachother, beginning every sentence with, "If I wasn't afraid, I would ___________." WOW. WOW. WOW. WOW. I REALLY encourage everyone to try this with a friend and you will likely be amazed at what simply reveals itself. When I started, I was dumbfounded. I didn't know what I was afraid of, as I generally feel quite courageous. So I just began to ramble.
Some of what came out was the following...
If I wasn't afraid, I could be among any people of any state or of any kind of energy and know I am totally safe and protected and free to shine. If I wasn't afraid I wouldn't need to judge or criticize anyone or myself. If I wasn't afraid I could accept the praise and love of others with ease and feel safe. If I wasn't afraid I would move to a tropical paradise. If I wasn't afraid I would become a full time lightworker, talking about, speaking and writing my truth about angels and light beings. If I wasn't afraid, I would speak my truth without regard for what anyone may think of it. If I wasn't afraid I would slow down. If I wasn'd afraid, I would do a fast or a vision quest. If I wasn't afraid, I would share my positivity without worrying about overwhelming anyone around me who is negative. If I wasn't afriad, I would have a baby. (This final statement popped out of my mouth and put me into a stunned silence which basically ended my sharing time a bit early... whoa! Very unexpected thing to come out of my mouth.)
This exercise immediately made me aware that I do indeed have many fears which quietly creep on the underside of my thoughts. Then we created action steps to move through.. mine were.
I'm saying yes to being a lightworker.
I'm saying yes to angels.
I'm saying yes to my divine mission.
I'm saying yes to laughter!
I committed that by January 2008 I will be moving forward on my divine mission in a big way.
Then we invited in archangel Gabriel... who is all about communication .. a more feminine essence who brings in forgiveness. We learned a powerful mantra, "I'm willing to release that part of me that get's annoyed when I think of you." (for use when we feel irritation). (Or my turnaround, "I let go and choose love!") We were reminded that when experiencing a challenge communicating with another, we could invite that person's guardian angels in with our won and ask them for a healing intervention. Bridget reminded us how important it is to talk out our issues either with people or angels because *we either talk it out or we act it out* in our relationships. How true!!! I realize this is a huge dusty issue for me... a challenge area historically in my relationships where I have stuffed emotions which felt too difficult to discuss... we talked about teaching people how we want to be treated and letting go of assumptions that everyone plays by the same rules as us, removing our stories from the actual facts of any given situation and how to lovingly state and begin conversations about what our non-negotiable boundaries are... so much more but I am running out of steam to keep typing.
Overall... I feel like this was a very healing experience on so many levels. I got lots of practical tools to use in my everyday life, lots of new ways to communicate more clearly and lovingly, direct confimation of being on the right path of my life mission, guidance about the next steps for my evolution, and very direct communication from the angels. I also got along the way throughout the day that I am suposed to attend Doreen Virtue's March 17-21, 2008 Angel Therapy Practitioner® Course in Hawaii! So lots revealed!
The open-ness and loving sharing from all the other particiapnts was amazing and they all sparkled with joyful enthusiasm and inspiration. Bridget is an amazing facilitator .. she was surrounded by Egyptian feline energy and blue sparkling light. What a joy! What a joy! I am so grateful for my amazing life and all the wonderful people I am meeting.
You can learn more about Bridget, our Angelic facilitator at: www.angelsareus.com/
You can learn more about Angel Therapy at www.angeltherapy.com
Just writing all of this feels so healing and part of my path of owning my truth. If you made it this far, thank you so much for witnessing my blossoming! Thank you!
Love,
Christabel