I'm at a week long Laughter Yoga Teacher Training here at Harbin Hot Springs in northern California! I feel so lucky to be here studying directly with the guru of laughter yoga direct from Bombay India, Dr. Madan Kataria.

It has been an intense but deeply powerful week so far. We awake every morning and begin practice at 6:30am, running through an hour to hour and a half long session. We go until about 830 or 9pm, with breaks for meals and a bit of downtime. Some is seated lecture and much is actual practice sessions.

I am learning wonderful methods by which to create my own daily laughter practice as a personal spiritual practice to cultivate joy. It is amazing and the methods are so easy and effective. While I originally thought I would attend just to gain insights into developing my own personal practice and perhaps some new hooping warm ups, I now realize that i must also practice this beautiful work in a group. I know that holding space for this will be a wonderful way to help me maintain my own practice and deepen it. I plan on setting up a laughter club in San Francisco when I return where i can hold free weekly sessions as my way of giving back to the community while we all bask in the joy of laughter. Where it may go and grow from there, i do not know, but i simply can't resist creating this same blissful synergy at home.

Laughter yoga is an intense physical and emotional workout and the beauty of it is that you learn how to laugh for absoluetly no reason whatsoever. We are learning all the techniques of warmups, class transitions, many many pranayama breathing exercises, laughter exercise drills, theories on the medical and physiological health benefits of laughter, and so much more. All 27 students have to take turns facilitating the entire group through all parts of the laughter yoga session, so I am really absorbing a lot of information just by watching all the drills happen and partaking in them.

What I really can't say enough about is how GOOD I feel! The diaphram exercies are helping me to identify weak points in my core which can be strengthened by Pranayamaic breathing coupled with laughter. We do the exercises and then suddenly real, genuine, leg smacking laughter is erupting from me non stop and it is such a wonderful euphoric feeling of wonder and joy. I am learning to laugh from all different parts of my torso and lungs, accessing a fountain of laughter which at times feels non stop. It is pouring out of me easier and faster and faster, and now even when we are in between training sessions, I find myself easily slipping into giggles and laughs.

Laughter is so deep. Being around Dr. Kateria, I am learning so much. There is a spiritual quality to laughter which he is imparting to us which relates to creating world peace and a sense of one-ness through inner joy, bliss from being alive (as opposed to happiness generated from outside situations and circumstances which we need to be aligned in a certain way to be "happy). The work is deep. And Dr. Kateria's sophisticated vocabulary of laughter sounds and textures is amazing to behold... from soft gentle baby type laughs to deep belly shaking buddha style laughter... every time he laughs, no matter at what or how, it all has a certain sweetness .. a joyful vibration which is wonderful to be near. He radiates grace when he laughs. Every student has their own laughter vocabulary and ways and habits, and it is wonderful to sit or stand next to different people and try on their style of laughter for a while to see how it resonates the body differently.

Imediately afterwards, there is an "afterglow". Kind of like the power of "wow". Sometimes it is so rich, we just sit in silence after a non stop 20 minute session and just soak in the different air quality, the vibrations which seem to still be in the room, and the smiles. lots more i want to share... but i got to run, our short break is about over.

Love from Harbin hot springs,
Christabel

This past sunday I went to an angel workshop at East-West Bookstore in Mountainview.

I had been reading Angela McGerr's works every day and doing mediutations and thought taking this workshop would help me feel more clear about why i have been attracted to this new area ... and also prepare for an upcoming all day Angel intensive I have with Bridget Engel in Marin county in two weeks.

All I can say is WOW. Attending this was perfect and so informative.

One interesting thing I have noticed is how many "Angel Therapists" are also hypnotherapists. The connection became clear in the presentation by french angelogist Genivieve Vulser.

What i like about Genvieve is how real she is. There is no "airy fairy-ness" about her. She is totallly grounded and astute... a school teacher by profession, but also adept at communication with angelic realms. She explained how communication with angels happens easiest when we can acheive the alpha-beta threshold in our brainwave frequency .. a special place where you have slowed down from the everyday reality and are just sinking ito 7.5 hertz, what she says is the frequency at which the universe vibrates 9still looking for more information about that).

She said that when we can arrive at that place, our vibration is premium for heightened states of intuition and communication with beings of light (since we are all made of vibration/frequency/energy, it is important to relax into this place first).

This insight from angelworkers who are also hypotherapists was AWESOME news for me because one of my biggest concerns was, "is what I have been experiencing 'real' since I only experience it in meditations and never in waking consciousness". The answer was an unequivocal YES... encounters with beings of light are just as real and just as valid while achieved in this state and it is normal that as a beginner I may not just be bumping into angels around the corner all the time.

A part of me knew these encounters were valid just from my body's physical response, but I was seeking some kind of validation for whatever reason. So it felt good to hear. Also good to hear that for most people, a meditative state is needed to experience communication until very very experienced. So that was my breakthrough.

She also did a number of angel meditations which were very revealing. In the first one, I was visited by my guardian angel and given a very clear message:
"Unconditional love means loving unconditionally". For me this was also strong since I have been wanting to open my heart to a new level with Kramer... getting past ideological differences to a place of love again. The message to me meant that the opportunity for my own transformation is ripe and just waiting for me to claim it! And in that flash, I really felt how Kramer and I have divine contracts with eachother which have been being fulfiled on both sides... a divine contract meaning a pre-incarnation agreement about how we would each help eachother evolve in this lifetime. I really caught in that moment that it is Kramer's contact to NOT have my same ideological values .. specifically to prompt me to follow through on my own and walk my true spiritual path without the need for validation or accompaniment to make it easier. It was a big WOW, an actual way i can grow my heart into a real love experience beyond intellectual ideas of love... into loving unconditionally. My contract with him i think has to do with reminding him how to access unconditional joy...

The second meditation I wanted to comment on included a visitation by an angelic being of light who placed it's "hands" over my heart and activated my heart in a very warm and wonderful way, with lots of pink soft energy washing over me in waves. I inquired about my life path and what I could do immediately to activate it. I was told clearly, as I have been many times before, my mission is to bring more light into myself and to share light, joy and positivity with all of humanity.

The answer to the second question was that i am to sit down and with full attention and without distraction, allow myself to "write" without any conscious thought, a letter to me from a higher source. I have not gotten to this yet... but will once i get home next week.

Lightblissings continue...

I'm at Harbin writing from the pay per minute internet kiosk. Unlike other nights which have had a glimmering carpet of stars *so bright*, tonight's sky is a dark carpet of clouds. The keys on this old fashioned PC are sticky and clumsy to use. The floorboards are vibrating my feet with thumping music playing downstairs for the thursday evening free dance. It is glitchey, deep thumping bassnectar type stuff. I really got my dance on the other night on tuesday in the temple, whirling into bliss with my hoop in a way i haven't experienced since the burn.... feels like just what I wanted. Now it is loud and sweaty with packed bodies down there... not calling me.

Outside has been sweet clean pure air. Cool to breathe in. I love how deer always seem to be feeding in nearby bushes and underbrush. Lizards and frogs emerge when the sun shines. Cats wander, creepiue crawlies everywhere and that rustle of wind through trees and the constant torpedoing of acorns falling from high trees which has actually nailed quite of few uf us with painful "pings"... the ripeness of fall nuts is everywhere. The pools are not romancing me here. The water is too cool for my taste and the paved swimming pool style set up doesn't call to me as deeply as Wilbur. No sulfer or fresh out of the river green-ness in the water here. I've decided i'll jet to wilbur next week sometime to get my hot spings fix.

Literally, i have had zero free time here to really bathe anyways. The schedule has been brutal, though the results of our devoted practice are sweet. The days which start at 630 have lasted as late as 10 pm, when I have stumbled incoherent up the hills from the lower conference center to the upper women's dorm to collapse in my bed until my alarm sounded at 6am. I feel bad for the other women in the room who have to hear an alarm while on retreat, but o well.

Today was rich. I was in NO mood to laugh when i arrived. I was exhuasted and couldn't get myself inetrested during the morning laughter, but something shifted in me once we moved to the second part of the session, into what is called laughter meditation. It was like a fountain of energy turned on in my belly and suddenly gushing, gurgling and pouring laughter just came out and out and out! It felt so fantastic, especially after I had just been in this moment of feeling like there was abolsutely no way I could access unconditional laughter. The magic continued for me throughout the day.

We had reporter come from the San Francisco Chronicle who was writing a story. It was really nice to *not* agree to be a part of the interview and story, even though given the opportunity. For me, always in front of cameras and reporters, it was like, "I don't need to do this now with this, I can just be me and have fun". It was sweet. We did a final laughter meditation surrounding the willing reporter for surging laughter and it happened again, that bottomless wellspring of deep, rolling, oceanic laughter just poured out of me again and again and again.

What is really nice while doing these exercises and meditations is that we all inspire eachother to let go even more. The constant eye contact, smiles and contagious sounds of everyone's laughs added to my own "fake it till you make it" sounds lead to spontaneous eruptions of delicious laughter. It is like riding these waves of energy ... and then the conscious breathing following that is so cool and refreshing in the lungs since they are so empty of stale air from all the events

Dr. Kataria is truely a wonder to behold. He has instantaneous access to one of the most sincere, authentic, childlike energies in an adult that i have ever experienced. He literally sparkles. What sticks in my mind most is his face when he is smiling. His jaw is released fully, he has lines where the skin folds at the outside of his eyes. He is over 50 and somehow going on 5 in certain moments... it is a look he gets in his eyes. A look of absolute presence and glee. Total contentment.

At the same time, Madan is this amazing physician, articulate, a leading edge researcher, a world leader. But in a moment he can access the power of playful silliness. He is absoluetly devoted to the work with a passion which astounds me. He is just so darn real and human. When he is beat at night, he yawns like crazy and nods off. When he is impatient he sighs. He doesn't pretend to be some guru or mystic with airs, and yet the simple timeless truths which he speaks between our exercises makes the air heavy with meaning.

Aside from all the science of laughter and the methodology and practices... some of the more spiritual truths and words which he spoke about which are still with me are:

-being responsible for bringing joy to the world instead of blaming outside forces for how things are
-being the positive change
-being authentic with who we are, not hiding our weaknesses
-letting our masks go because life is too short
-loving our imperfect, human self
-listening to the heart
-trusting a higher force
-God being in charge and the organizing factor which really matters
-moving from a purity of intent in sharing the laughter work
-holding a clear vision of what we seek to manifest
-taking time to cultivate a rich daily laughter practice
-meditating and visualizing after this daily practice so we have creative energy flowiong through our bodies
-remembering to be of service to others

and of course so much more that I can hardly remember as i am exhausted and so full with goodness.

What i haven't mentioned yet is Dr. Kataria's voice. He has a wonderful voice. First of all, his accent is so hypnotic to listen to with all the Indian lilting sounds which play with words in such a fun way. All the up and down tonalities of his accent are delightful. And then to listen to how he uses his voice so skillfully, as a tool to teach and encourage, is amazing.

He spoke the other day about how when he first came from India he had trouble speaking to others about his work because Indian people have a habit of speaking very, very fast. Also, when he spoke English he crammed all his words together. He realized very quickly he was not creating the effect he wanted so he took time to train with a vocal coach and play with speaking from his belly, and slowing down his words to leave spaces of silence around the key points that matter. He trained himself deliberatly in this way and I have to say as a listener, it makes him a very powerful speaker. Speed and inflections, tone and pitch are all used with intent... and this awareness also translates to his laughter compositions... I call them compositions because his laughter is truely like music. It is very wonderful when we wanders through the room spending a moment laughing with each of us during exercises, and he comes close and laughs with me for a moment. He is an incredible open transmitter of joy who has achieved such ease and grace in spilling out so many different sounds of laughter.

Up until today, I have interacted with Dr. Kataria and his wife very superficially because honestly I was at a loss of words when both of them came near. They just glow, and at the same time they seem a bit drained from their travels and I know what that can be like when holding space for a training and then hoping for a moment of energetic recovery on a break... i didn't want to interrupt their time. The few times I sat near him at a meal, it seemed like i just smiled at him (maybe I was smiling so widely i looked like an insane person?) and he seemed to look away after a moment. So I laughed it off, but in a way felt a bit bummed since I held him in such admiration but couldn't pull it together in front of him to have a normal casual conversation.

Well tonight was a sweet moment. As it was our last night staying over here, we had a talent show to break it up and celebrate eachother. Everyone asked me to hoop so I did (though I was looking forward to just sitting back in the crowd). I was the second act and people loved it. I danced to RaRa AVi's remix of Gopala, and near the end of the track I allowed myself to experience full laughter while hooping. It was quite amazing.... i 've never done that before. I just inahled deeply and opened my mouth, allowing myself to feel the bliss in the song and in my body and accessed full, deep belly laughter while performing. Everyone broke out in laughter in response and it was so fun to stimulate that in everyone. I went back to my seat and Dr. Katraria reached out, looked me in the eyes with a big smile for a long moment and just held my hand for a minute or so. It just felt so purely loving and sweet. His wife, Madri, asked me many questions about hoopdance and spoke such kind and generous words of admiration to me that I was truely honored. I gave her a hoop and DVD and she says she truely wants to learn and share it with friends in India. It is amazing to connect with such inspiring people... I also had a bit of a deja-vu, as in recent 15 minute miracle writings I have been including the visualization that I am now connecting with inspiring luminaries who are sharing positivity and joy with the world. And here I am, connecting with a whole room of people and wonderful teachers who are doing just that.

I'm so full. So much information and true full body cleansing. I have to say, it is a tremendous physical workout and emotional release to laugh so hard so much, even going to the point of tears with it every day.

*sigh* I'm beat. I think I have to go to sleep.

Everyone who has been emaling and calling, I promise I will contact you within a few days of getting back home to San Francisco!!!

Love to you all,
Christabel

Just arrived home after driving back from the Laughter Yoga retreat. Even though today was short, it was beautiful with many breakthroughs and realizations.

Dr. Kartaria shared with me that it was amazing to watch me laugh while performing hoopdance last night because it meant that even though I was hooping, my diaphram was completely at ease and relaxed. He said what when my dance really came alive was when I let myself laugh and he heard it move from "he-he" to "ha-ha" laughter sounds.

He shared that throughout the entire training until now, I have been laughing in the "he-he" range, which means that it has emerged from my throat. He said that this kind of laughing emerges when our jaw is locked with pent up emotions. He suggested I concentrate on relaxing my jaw, lowering the place where my laughter emerges from, transforming my "he-he" to "ha-ha" so it is heart based, and eventally moving on to the goal of "ho-ho", belly based laughter. It sounds simple, but for me was quite a revelation. The fact that I spontaneously did this for the first time while hooping was quite thrilling.

We received our diplomas after the day was done and I had a quiet moment sitting by Madan. He reached his hand out to me and I took it, and he said sincerly, "i love you." I couldn't help but respond with the same, as we sat again in a moments silence, just breathing in the moment. Dr. Kararia is this way with everyone, but his sincereness is healing to me on so many levels and just hearing the heart and love in his voice is tranforming for me. I think that one moment was the most precious one for me today.

After this, we exchanged gifts we brought with another person from the training. We sat down with them before opening gifts and shared constant eye contact and breathing for 5 minutes before opening the gift. It was quite amazing and tears came to my eyes. Dr. Kataria said this exercise is usually 40 minutes in length, but since we were short on time, we would only do 5. I can't imagine how 40 minutes would feel.... perhaps Kramer would be game to try it out with me sometime soon!

Other amazing memories of this event and the words of Dr. Kataria...

-"be a supercontrinutor instead of a superachiever".

-Surrender your mind, thinking and actions to "the higher". (He used this phrase a lot, especially when he spoke of how the entire idea of a laughter club came to him... in his words, "it just came from up.")

- Align yourself to the laws of the universe by practicing spiritual values... especially unconditional love through service. He used the example of trees... they always give thier fruits in abundance to anyone who wants them, they equally give shade and respite to anyone who wants to sit under them, regardless of social status or other quaification.. trees exemplify unconditional giving.

-Surrender to the divine design. If something hard is happening, know there is something good for you in it.

-Love is the truth. Love is the most powerful force in the universe. When you are being authentic, love solves all your problems, helps you remove masks.

-Our motivation to grow is much better if it is based on a total and peaceful acceptance of who we really are as imperfect beings since life as a human is inherently imperfect. He added this hilarious gem of sage wisdom... "however hard you try, the last drop of urine will land on your underwear." Release what should be and accept what is.

-Let go of fixing yourself. Completeness comes from within regadless of circumstances.

-Enhance your signature strengths .. focus on your divine gifts, remove struggle and enhance the positive.

-Instead of correcting people, connect with them.

-Laugh without any reason at least 30 minutes a day as an exercise to create joy, Don't focus on laughter or the sound of laughter, focus on joy. Be playful, like a child

-Breathe for those who need healing. Breathing can become your spiritual practice.

-"A good leader produces more leaders".

-We want to program the body to be "bulletproof", that is, resistant to the negative physical biochemical reactions to stress, by retraining ourselves to respond to perceived stresses with joy.

-When developing your laugh, we want "efforless ease". Do birds struggle to fly, he asked? Love yourself as you are. Nature develops at it's own pace. Let laughter happen. Surrender. Let go of the outcome which is in the hands of existance. Just enjoy the process because happiness which comes from acheivement of an ideal is fleeting.

-All relaxation is exhalation. Sighs. Crying. Laughing. Relax.

So that's what comes to mind... I'm super excited to see where this all goes with my hooping... and with life in general!

Kramer and Scott are in the other room next to me finishing their new album they have produced...they were amused and also a bit surprised by the depth of my laughter when I got back, but playful and smiling. They will be working together all week so I will be spending lots of time outside the house to give them space to create... thinking of ging to Dance Jam in Berkeley tonight even though I have never been... not sure why... seeking a wonderful freedance experience at the moment...

I'm off! Happy friday!

Hello friends! My friend Kristin has kindly offered to let us use the third floor of her new house for the LightBliss Laughter club's first meeting!!! Horaay! I I hope you will join us!

WHAT: A FREE LAUGHTER CLUB!
DATE: THIS WEDNESDAY, OCTOBER 10-?
WHEN: 8:15-9:15 AM
BRING: Come wearing loose fitting clothes, bring a wilingness to try laughing, a water bottle, yoga mat, a meditation cushion and two big pillows (or none of these things and you will still be just fine! These just make it extra comfy). Avoid meals or eating directly beforehand.

~PLEASE RSVP BY EMAILING ME TO GET LOCATION SENT TO YOU.... SPACE IS VERY LIMITED~

Laughter is amazing medicine for the body, mind and spirit. Come and have fun connecting with others while strengthening your body. It is an amazing way to start your day with bliss!

We will see how it flows in this space and decide after our first meeting if we will continue in this space or find another... come enjoy life with us!

What to expect: Christabel will lead you through clapping and breathing exercises, interactive play and eye contact with others while doing laughter exercises, freeflowing laughter meditation, full body relaxation ... and lots of fun!

Giggles,
Christabel

Be on the lookout for my new websites....
"www.laughteryogabliss.com" --AND--
"www.lightbliss.com"

and Laughter Yoga Leader Certifications coming soon!

I'm ready! I have had this book on my shelf for about 4 years. While I have read and studied all the other books by Sanaya Roman and Orin, and done most of the meditations available by Orin, this book has quietly gathered dust. I bought it because all their other materials contained timeless truths that have helped me learn so much about life. But this book... I don't know. Something kind of put me off about it.

"Channeling"? What the heck? I think part of me didn't even really grasp the concept. I think I was also a bit scared because I didn't know what or why I would channel. I had fear of the negative. For years I had a somewhat limited perception of the galaxy and the energies it contains. But for whataver reason, wether because of my increased interest in angels, soul work or working with beings of light... I now understand the value and beauty of becoming a conscious channel of light. I actually have a more tangible understanding of how energy and consciousness is woven together in a matrix which we can tap into and it feels quite welcoming and loving. I think I actually have chanelled quite a lot, though pretty unconsciously up until now. It happens all the time while I teach class. Now though, I am ready to channel a super high being of light, and to take it beyond the classroom into life.

I am not at all sure what all that means yet, if I even understand the process, or can intellectually rationalize it, but I have voraciously jumped into this book, which I think will provide some wonderful first steps.

Meanwhile, I am reading lots of channelled materials that I have seen, but never pulled from bookstore shelves over the years. It is amazing how the same titles I have scanned past before are now leaping out at me and saying, "read me! now!" So I'm off into my own metaphysical wonderland...

I welcome suggestions from anyone who has specific chanelled materials you would recommend.. meanwhile, lots of time meditating, opening to more awareness...

I am doing my daily laughing meditation as well for 30 minutes per day and it has shifted my entire vibrational frequency up 10 notches... amazing! Though the heavy foods and occassional wineI am having are pulling me down a bit in my awareness. One step at a time.

Being human is amazing!

Our new 16 hour Level One HoopFit instructor training program has officially launched!

HoopFit is a drill-based, express hoop workout system for use in gyms. This is designed specifically for those who want to teach hooping as a pure fitness experience. Approved by the American Aerobics and Fitness Association to provide continuing education units to exercise professionals.

Our first training event is taking place:
December 8&9. ClubSport Oregon located in Tigard, OREGON.

Fee: $350 for two day program. You can register in the online store at www.hoopgirl.com

Learn more at the HoopGirl website under "Teacher Training"

Note that the original HoopGirl Certified Dance Instructor Program, which has more of a mind-body, personal transformation focus, is still active! Those who take that program still have the option to license as HoopGirl Workout Instructors.

The new HoopFit program is different from our original program in that it is shorter, more affordable, designed specifically for fitness professionals and has a strong focus on gym based classes.

Anyone interested in having a HoopFit training in their hometown can contact me and I'll get you information on how we can make it happen. We can set up a training at a local fitness club near you. If you host and help promote an event you can attend for free!

Enjoy!

My name is Christabel.

I am luminous, playful, light-hearted, energetic, healthy, creative, joy-infused and loving!

My energy feels strong, sparkling, effervescent, and shiny.

I am a divine immortal being. I have sacred contracts with everyone in my life which we created before birth to help eachother grow at a soul level. I am devoted to this spiritual adventure of awareness because it is fun and exciting to me.

My divine mission here on Earth is to hold and radiate light to accelerate planetary peace! Light is usable life force energy carried on waves of joy and love which help accelerate healing and a sense of unity. I deliver this luminosity in many everyday ways.

I am delighted to have this human package! Incarnation is a precious gift, a wonderful learning game for my spirit to remember to stay awake to my divine essence. My emotions are a navigational system which help me discern how awake I am. Relationships teach me how to connect with my higher self. Life events teach me how to stay grounded and channel a higher power through deliberate action.

I am surrounded by flocks of angels, light beings and guides. When I walk into a room, it is as if there are hundreds of us coming in at once because they surround me on all sides with their energy and joyful presence. I am deepening my awareness of these light beings everyday and it feels like the singlemost important thing happening in my life. Lots of practice and exposure to many meditations helps me to remain aware. I am learning how to trust my feelings in this department.

My guided meditations are taking me beyond physical reality into a world of light and energy which is exhilarating and accelerating me. I have been going down into the DNA of my body and infusing it with light, working with my own energetic aura to clear and reconnect linkages to higher sources, connecting to my soul and Divine Will, working with masters of light who have been downloading information into my brain, getting messages from angels, connecting to solar light from suns in other galaxies, becoming aware of planetary consciousness and the interconnected consciousness of all the suns in the universe, and generally playing in a matrix of light which seems to be expanding out further and further. I am learning how to maintain awareness in everyday reality of these spectacular journeys.

I am an empath. I easily feel and sometimes see the emotions of those around me. My heightened sensitivity is a gift which allows me to discern what feels good.

I am learning to maintain my own energetic boundaries so that I can maintain my own positivity despite outside circumstances. Because I become like those I spend time with, I choose to spend time with people whom I admire who have qualities which I seek to develop within myself. I love being in community!

I choose to spend time among happy, healthy people who are magnetic because of their inner radiance, visionary perspectives and commitment to conscious evolution. I play, co-create and learn from others who are light-filled, energetic dynamos.

I love life! Life is fun and I love being present and enjoying every moment. I have deep faith that everything happens for a reason and I trust the process.

I carefully choose how I spend my time. I choose to expose myself only to positive media. I cultivate daily practices of movement, reading, talking to friends, exercise, laughter, meditation and prayer so that I can remain aware.

I manifest what I need and desire with ease so that I can focus on creating and enjoying more joy. I take time to visualize exactly what I want and I take the steps to get there, savoring the journey along the way. I love all the wonderful experiences and people which flood into my life during this adventure.

I am commited to health! I am always interested in learning about how to build a stronger, more vibrant physical and energetic body.

I love being in nature. The green energy of the trees and plants and having my feet on grass, rocks and dirt quiets my mind and helps me feel serene and connected.

I am going through big changes! I feel as if I have been asleep in a routine and am now waking up to many realizations about who and what and why I am. I am developing the courage to speak my truth fully and take bigger risks to follow my higher self’s council.

I find myself hungry for metaphysical information, deep conversations with friends, meeting new friends on the same vibrational level, quality time spent preparing foods, laughing, being inspired by art, sharing love, taking time to smell the roses, being in the wilderness, dancing, immersing into uplifting music, meditating, celebrating life, swimming in hot springs, learning from inspiring teachers, being in nourishing tropical environments and energetic power spots.

I hope to reconnect with my husband because it suddenly feels as if we are on different paths, with different values and different needs. I want to continue to help eachother grow in positive ways while still honoring our own truths. I intend to clarify my feelings and speak my truth. I am learning how to open and deepen my heart and feelings of love. Angels, I'm ready for some divine assistance in this department!

So that is a bit of who I am right now.

Love,
me

Miracles abound! I went to an all day angel workshop with Bridget today with no expectations, just an open mind. Driving up into Mill Valley was gorgeous, with the sun bright and luminescent, good clean smelling air and lots of tall green trees. Up and up and up I drove to her wonderful mountainside home. I paded inside and down carpested stairs as I was a few minutes late. Everyone was already gathered and holding hands, getting ready to share intentions for the day. Lots of smiling faces .. about 10 women and 2 men... and that is how it all began.

My intention was "to be able to speak my truth and own my path with courage and to release caring what anyone thinks of me", and the whole day provided endless insights and gifts to help me do just that! We learned many basics about inviting angels into our lives, were introduced to our guardian angels, Archangel Michael, Archangel Gabriel and Metatron, and did lots of meditations and exercises.

Especially wonderous moments for me:

*Essential ingredients of the lightworker's toolbox: breathing, shielding, grounding, vacuuming out fear, cutting cords. It is totally normal for Lightworkers to tend to their energy since they are so sensitive

*If I feel dragged down by other's negativity, I can state several times per day, "I'm not taking on anyone else's energy." (or my turnaround to remove the negative, "I am surrounded by Divine light and protected in my bubble of bliss!")

*All energy is the same. We label it as good or bad and then react to our THOUGHTS about our label!

*Ask the angels for acceptance of others and release the need to fix or heal others. Ask the angels to intervene.

*Hearing that angelic messages are delivered on molecules of oxygen and so the quality of the air we breathe is extremely important ... of course we can hear angels much better near trees and the ocean

*The frequency of gratitude is the same frequency of angels... love!

*I am Clairsentient! I am extra sensituve to energy and I feel messages through my body. Even though I can't "see" angels in everyday reality, I can feel their communication through physical sensations... through squeezes on my body, gut sensations, goosebumps, tingling and more...trust my body sensations!

*Remember that I am always divinely taken care of, but I have to let go and share with the angels as part of my team. If I don't surrender to the divine, the divine cannot get in to give me gifts!

*Meeting My Guardian Angels Meditation*
Meditation of floating on an innertube in sparkling warm water and looking up at clouds, feeling totally safe, relaxed and letting go. Landed on a sandy beach and put on glittering rhinestoned slippers and a thick, luxurious white bathrobe. I wandered through dense tropical foilage with thick green leaves and fantastical, sweet smelling and brightly colored blooms. I walked along this raw, earthy dirt path, the light filtering through the trees, on a path lined by large crystals. Finally, I arrived in a grove with turqoiuse waterfalls and a natural pool with a pulsating rose quartz temple next to it.

As I ascend the stairs of the lumiescent temple, I meet my guardian angels... They are bright energy forms surrounded by rainbows, pulsating out soft pink love energy and shiney sparkling lights like shimmering bubbles. The feeling of their love for me is almost overwhelming -- like 1000x the unconditional love I feel from dogs sometimes. One of them has more green energy. There are matrixes of light blue/whitish light through each and they each come along side me. I ask their names. I hear quite directly Raphael and Emma... I know Raphael is the archangel of Healing so I am a bit confused (I thought archangels were sort of a step above guardian angels) and when I hear the name "Emma" I let go a bit . (I heard this name revealed to me in a dream lately and then the next day found myself in a carpet of white feathers while walking at Stow Lake ... finding a white feather is supposed to confirm angelic presence in your life.. still I doubted the validity of this ... but when I got it again today.... well I let go). Later I hear that archangels can walk by your side as special guardian angels as well so I release even more doubt. I realize how much I have been holding angels at arms length even though I wanted to invite them into my life... my mind always skeptical and analyzing. I released and felt seeds of trust.

Raphael's energy feels soothing, regenerative, like a balm, cooler, more powerful and stately and deep. Emma's energy feels giggly and enthusiastic, nurturing, emanating love, full of excitement, playful .. light and almost sprite-like Very, very simillar energy to my dear friend Dawn Light. The energies were very distinctive, but the rainbow energetic matrixes pulsed through both.

I ask how I can become more aware of angels in my life and get quite clearly, "Move to Marin, connect with other angel lovers and your angels, and follow this new path with trust". Then they hand me the gift of a special mantra to remember... and I giggle because it is the same mantra from our laughter yoga training... "ho-ho-ha-ha-ha!" Basically they are telling me to keep laughing to keep communicating with them! I love it.

Chakra Clearing Meditation
Next we did a chakra clearing meditation with Archangel Michael, during which I got some VERY clear and powerful information. Archangel Michael helps us dispell fear and clarify our life mission. He uses his mythic sword to cut cords of attachement. I felt quite clearly that the fear I have had around speaking my truth is NOT mine! "release and let it go" I felt. It was like an incredible realization in that moment, almost as if I had picked up someone else's fear like lint which stuck to me and gathered more. This deep incredulous realization, knowing quite clearly, "what do I have to be afraid of? Nothing! This doesn't belong to me!". A clear sensation that it was almost some kind of residue that I picked up and wasn't a part of my very essence.

Next we were introduced to Metatron, an archangel who assists with self-esteem who has a strong, blunt, but loving way of communicating. Very direct. We did another meditation, asking what could boost our self esteem and help us embrace our true selves.. again I got very clear and strong communication "write and talk!". As if writing and talking about my beliefs would help me move to the next level of honoring my truth. We were all sharing our experiences afterwards and when I shared mine, Bridget looked at me deeply for a moment and said slowly, "right, and that's your divine mission isn't it?" and she looked at me expectantly. It was very clear to me that she was channeling. It was a very intense moment and I felt my heart squeeze as I said "yes". She only called out one other person that directly throughout the day... it was a strong moment for me.

Next we created two boxes to help us understand how to be aware of when we need to shift our energy (help for which of course we can call upon the angels!) The question to ask ourselves was, "are we above or below the bar?"

UPPER BOX-- POWER--LOVE
confidence, boundaries, joy, courage, happiness, peace, conected, grounded, strong, clearn, inspired, elated, acceptance, enthusiasm, good posture

-----------BAR--------------- **ask for angelic help to move up***

LOWER BOX--VICTIM--FEAR
intertia/stuck, blame, self-pity, doubt, fear, anger, stress, frustration, tension, bitter, depressed, fixing, slouching

Always asking ourselves throughout the day, "what amd I choosing to feel now?" and remembering our own ways to feel powerful again (for me, in addition to asking for angelic help, meditating, ealking in nature, speaking my truth, dancing, drinking water and eating raw food, prayer).

We did another meditation.. I asked for knowledge of the next step for my life mission and got quite clearly from Metatron, "more angel time". Right after this meditation, Bridget went into this talk on how we have to develop a relationship with angels the same way we would cultivate a relationship with friends .. it takes TIME, talking, conversing and conscious interaction. I was pretty blown away, since all of this was echoing the direct message I had just received! Wow!

We went on to explore Michaels guidance to us which Briget channeled which related to only giving problems enough of your time in identifying them and then immediately shifting our focus to creating solutions .. she said that letting our focus dwell on the negative only makes it bigger. While this seems obvious, it was a big aha in that moment... by letting an issue recirculate over and over day after day, we start to create stories about it which give it even more energy.

A good way to do this is to be careful about what kinds of questions you ask yourself... i.e. instead of asking, "why am I stuck here" ask, "how can I embrace the courage to reach my highest potential?" It is amazing how reframing a question can change the whole energetic!

We did another meditation where we let Michael vaccum out any fear which was lodged in our body and then fill those newly emptied spaces with thick, sparkling, healing white light. It was exhilerating. The message from Michael, via Bridget, was that when fear is removed there is room for courage and power, but first all fear must be removed.

We did a fear releasing meditation during which I suddenly saw myself upon a beach in Kauai being a part of an angel retreat of some kind, and then my awareness went right back into the meditation, letting go of fear.

You know, this whole fear thing is quite interesting because I tend to focus on the light and bright and repel the "negative". So when people start talking about "fears" I generally check out because I have not really been aware of having many. It seemed like thinking about them would create something which wasn't even really there to start with. But then we did what was perhaps the most poiwerful exercise of the day where we sat with a partner and each spoke for 5 minutes, uninteruppted, to eachother, beginning every sentence with, "If I wasn't afraid, I would ___________." WOW. WOW. WOW. WOW. I REALLY encourage everyone to try this with a friend and you will likely be amazed at what simply reveals itself. When I started, I was dumbfounded. I didn't know what I was afraid of, as I generally feel quite courageous. So I just began to ramble.

Some of what came out was the following...
If I wasn't afraid, I could be among any people of any state or of any kind of energy and know I am totally safe and protected and free to shine. If I wasn't afraid I wouldn't need to judge or criticize anyone or myself. If I wasn't afraid I could accept the praise and love of others with ease and feel safe. If I wasn't afraid I would move to a tropical paradise. If I wasn't afraid I would become a full time lightworker, talking about, speaking and writing my truth about angels and light beings. If I wasn't afraid, I would speak my truth without regard for what anyone may think of it. If I wasn't afraid I would slow down. If I wasn'd afraid, I would do a fast or a vision quest. If I wasn't afraid, I would share my positivity without worrying about overwhelming anyone around me who is negative. If I wasn't afriad, I would have a baby. (This final statement popped out of my mouth and put me into a stunned silence which basically ended my sharing time a bit early... whoa! Very unexpected thing to come out of my mouth.)

This exercise immediately made me aware that I do indeed have many fears which quietly creep on the underside of my thoughts. Then we created action steps to move through.. mine were.

I'm saying yes to being a lightworker.
I'm saying yes to angels.
I'm saying yes to my divine mission.
I'm saying yes to laughter!

I committed that by January 2008 I will be moving forward on my divine mission in a big way.

Then we invited in archangel Gabriel... who is all about communication .. a more feminine essence who brings in forgiveness. We learned a powerful mantra, "I'm willing to release that part of me that get's annoyed when I think of you." (for use when we feel irritation). (Or my turnaround, "I let go and choose love!") We were reminded that when experiencing a challenge communicating with another, we could invite that person's guardian angels in with our won and ask them for a healing intervention. Bridget reminded us how important it is to talk out our issues either with people or angels because *we either talk it out or we act it out* in our relationships. How true!!! I realize this is a huge dusty issue for me... a challenge area historically in my relationships where I have stuffed emotions which felt too difficult to discuss... we talked about teaching people how we want to be treated and letting go of assumptions that everyone plays by the same rules as us, removing our stories from the actual facts of any given situation and how to lovingly state and begin conversations about what our non-negotiable boundaries are... so much more but I am running out of steam to keep typing.

Overall... I feel like this was a very healing experience on so many levels. I got lots of practical tools to use in my everyday life, lots of new ways to communicate more clearly and lovingly, direct confimation of being on the right path of my life mission, guidance about the next steps for my evolution, and very direct communication from the angels. I also got along the way throughout the day that I am suposed to attend Doreen Virtue's March 17-21, 2008 Angel Therapy Practitioner® Course in Hawaii! So lots revealed!

The open-ness and loving sharing from all the other particiapnts was amazing and they all sparkled with joyful enthusiasm and inspiration. Bridget is an amazing facilitator .. she was surrounded by Egyptian feline energy and blue sparkling light. What a joy! What a joy! I am so grateful for my amazing life and all the wonderful people I am meeting.

You can learn more about Bridget, our Angelic facilitator at: www.angelsareus.com/

You can learn more about Angel Therapy at www.angeltherapy.com

Just writing all of this feels so healing and part of my path of owning my truth. If you made it this far, thank you so much for witnessing my blossoming! Thank you!

Love,
Christabel

I just had a wonderful personal coaching session with an amazing metaphysician named Franc. All I can say is wow, I'm onto something!

It was amazing how freeing it was to just talk about all the intense changes I have going on within with someone completely outside my life who has no real knowledge or expectation of me to be a specific person or way.

I realize I have become very *intense* over the years .. and I have been called to shift my essence to a new vibration of gentleness which is more nurturing, slow and soft. Still powerful, but energizing through allowing instead of pushing.

I realize that over the years I put to sleep a more intuitive part of myself when I became so focused on manifesting and efforting to run my business. I realize I have fallen into an "either/or" dichotomy in some ways, feeling I need to keep some more spiriual blogs off the official HoopGirl website out of fear of "what people will think" . I guess over the years I let the HoopGirl business *become* me and I had no boundaries at all ... now that I am developing a more healthy relationship with the company, letting it grow itself and delegating others and letting others be the superstars, it has created space for me to slow down a bit and remember to ask, "who am I consciously choosing to become?"

I also realize I have easily gotten caught up in spiritual arrogance when I focus on differences and fear instead of similaries...

Franc, and my other trusted advisors, will be helping me play through these questions...

Until our next talk in 2 weeks, I'll be working on a vision board of my future life in 5 years. Also, I will write a blog entitled, "Who I am Becoming", using lots of what Franc calls, "essence" words...

Life is such a wonderful journey!

I started this morning with an Orin meditation for divine life purpose…

Our life in 5 years or less: Kramer and I have two homes: one on a tropical Hawaaian island paradise in Maui or Kauai and one in California, in an energetically nurturing place with lots of trees, mountains and ocean like Marin county or Santa Barbara. We also travel regularly to wonderful romantic places where we have fun adventures together.

We get large amounts of income deposited into our bank accounts every day with no effort on our part, and we have enough money for generations of comfort. We have lots of free time to play and have fun, and enjoy a slow pace of life enjoying nature, health and loving family and friends.

HoopGirl is still active and being run by women who have been empowered to step into positions of leadership, creativity and authority which is bringing out their own divine missions. It is wonderful to sit back and watch all the beauty emerging. The love of hoopdance is still spreading across the globe at quantum speed and HoopGirl products are bringing joy and wellbeing into the lives of millions.

I love writing about love, angels, radiance and living in joy. I am a well published author in this realm and success has come to me easily. One publisher who I work with a lot is Hay House. I host quarterly angel retreats which creates even more play money and also allows me to deeply connect with amazing angel lovers and share my knowledge. I am close friends with the leading angelogists in the world, including Doreen Virtue and Angela McGerr, and collaborate with them to create exciting magical projects. I have learned much from them and others who have led the way for my playfilled career. I love creating practical tools for personal transformation and evolution, like cards, meditation journeys, and more. I am fully supported in all my creative endeavors by publishers and distribution companies who love my ideas and instantly manifest them.

My visions are no longer limited to meditations. I know have a deep knowingness of my soul family, divine mission, beings of light, angelic presences, and a tangible connection to divine beings of light and the cosmos which is real and practical. I have embraced my role as a lightworker naturally and have magnetically attracted those with a similar path into my life. We mutually amplify awareness in eachother and help eachother develop and fulfill our life missions.

There is lots of dance and healthy movement in our lives. I see Tai Chi too.

I regularly attend all kinds of consciousness retreats which connect me with amazing visionaries and inspire me to grow. I meditate and pray everyday, have clear communication with angels and loving beings of light, have fully accessed my higher self, am aware of my soul and life mission and move in every way from the essence of love. My 4 channels of psychic awareness are ON and I can easily use them to help me with my work/play.

Everything in my life overflows with play and joy! Everything I choose to be involved with brings more goodness, love and light. There is lots of laughter, smiles, fun and gratitude. Kramer and I keep discovering fun, healthy interests which we love to explore together. Our love, communication, sex life and friendship is spectacular. Life is amazing!

I have wonderful angelic animal friends in my life, including a wonderfully intelligent, loving and quiet Chihuahua who brings play and smiles into our lives. She loves to nuzzle, cuddle, stare with big eyes transmitting love, go for walks, curl up quietly during workshops and play with new friends.

We have a baby or two who opens us both to levels of love and joy which are amazing. This indigo child, or two, teaches us so much about presence, gratitude and awakening. She, and/or he, is a pure being of love. We find being parents easy and fun. We have LOTS of help raising our child/ren and it is naturally effortless. Kramer especially steps in to play a major role and discovers himself in new ways as a father. We still have lots of time for our own remarkable relationship and we love how it changes our lives in sweet and perfect ways.

I love gardening, which has become a wonderful way for me to ground and connect to nature energies. I grow all kinds of food and flowers which nourish and energize us. I love growing orchids and big, gorgeous over the top tropical flowers, as well as jasmine, rosemary, lavender and other herbs.

I see Kramer immersing himself into activities which nourish his soul. I see his joyfulness growing and his sense of purpose clarifying while he loosens up and has more easygoing fun, moving from a place of love and acceptance. His music albums and other creative projects are very successful!

Kramer and I also find fun ways to collaborate on some creative projects which is lots of fun.

I spend lots of time in nature, hiking, soaking in hot springs, communing with the ocean and dolphins, connecting, bring in wonder and gratitude for life!

I love preparing wonderful, delicious, aromatic foods which are organic and fun. I create all sorts of raw and cooked dishes over hours of fun time which we love!

I have LOTS of friends who are on the same wavelength and we enjoy lots of time together sharing ideas, meditating, laughing and having fun.

We see our families a lot and enjoy creating new traditions to share. We enjoy life absolutely in every moment, knowing life is a precious gift to love and enjoy.

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Abundance Reading: Question. “What can I do to make more money?”

1. What you learned about money as a child: Zanna
2. Your current beliefs about money: Archangel Gabriel
3. Blocks to Abundance: Teresa
4. Angels Guidance About Abundance: Akasha
5. Your next best step to take: Athena
6. What to expect when you take that step: Bethany
7. How to keep abundance flowing in your life: Opal
8. Clarifying card on Opal: Azure

Even though I did this reading somewhat casually without expecting a grandiose answer, it felt quite profound! I was again surprised by the depth, insight and love in the cards.

“You are protected from all types of harm. The worst is now behind you. I ask you to relax and feel safe.” As a child I learned, Like Zanna, that I can always relax and feel safe about money. I learned that I was always protected by how freely my mom spent money for me, that she would always watch over me like an angel. Later, I learned through mistakes with money and taking responsibility for them, how to watch over myself. Most of the fears which I had have been transmuted. I learned that I could relax and enjoy myself and that my happiness is a smile to heavan… this sensation continued when I continued to follow my bliss with my hoop company as well.

“You have an important life purpose involving communication and the arts. Please don’t allow insecurities to hold you back. I will help you.” My current beliefs about money and Archangel Garbielle. It was interesting to get this card and realize it is a familiar card… I seem to draw it a lot. I took a moment and sensed into Gabriel with appreciation, feeling quite blessed. This card felt very empowering! It suggested my current beliefs about money are related to my life purpose, communication and “not holding back.” This card says I have a deep belief that if I continue to follow my bliss and walk my life path, that money will continue to come to me. This is a powerful belief, and I sense even part of the message I am here to teach! And interesting that it was coupled with this reminder that Garbiellle is working so closely with me as a personal coach who is just waiting for me to reach out and ask for help.

“Time out! You’ve been so busy taking care of everyone else’s needs, but now it’s time to stop and take care of yourself.” Blocks to abundance indicated by Teresa. This struck a resonant cord. I got the distinct inner message that working SO hard for SO long is often often driven by fear instead of love, and it actually burns me out and disconnects me from Source. Since Source is the source of all abundance, I create my own blocks by PUSHING too hard, efforting, going for more, more, more! This angelic message reminded me that relaxation is a divine necessity, and to trust that all material responsibilities will be met by those who will step up to help. Interesting because I have been experiencing this lately in letting go… of classes, performances, rehersals and experiencing that in letting go, the “block” is removed and in my relaxation and reflection I have time to connect and be restored and re-inspired! It is true!

“You are a spiritual teacher. You have the ability to counsel others and help them awaken their special gifts and Divine life mission.” Angel’s guidance about abundance signified by Akasha. This card knocked my socks off. It said to me that the angels are telling me that I will gain the abundance I seek by making myself available to even more people, specifically as a teacher, writer and workshop leader about being a lightworker. It was powerful to hear that I am absolutely qualified and that I am backed by angels and that this is my Divine life purpose and truest path to abundance. Remember to ask the angels for help in this teaching work! Abundance and embracing my true spiritual path are ONE. Abundance will come through releasing fear, building confidence and staying centered in love through the process. Love is all that matters. I also got a small intuitive hit that perhaps part of my teaching relates to helping people discover what a Divine Life Mission is and how to remember it by connecting with angels! (Something about Kramer’s being baffled by that concept came back to me and signified a need in society).

“It is now safe to be powerful. You know how to be powerful in a loving way that benefits others as well as yourself.” The next step to take indicated by Athena. Again. WOW. The first words struck a cord. “You have been afraid of your own power. You have worried that others would disapprove or leave you if you allowed your true power to shine.” Yes! I have. This card said to me that the next step to take is to become lovingly powerful in my skills, ways of speaking about my path as a lightworker, and in how I move forward from here. Remembering that all power comes from love and God and is unlimited. Letting power emerge from a connection to Source and love is true and real. Remember that it is not “me”, not from the ego, so let it shine!

“When you take excellent care of yourself, everybody benefits. Give yourself a relaxing treat today, such as a massage, seasalt bath or pedicure.” Bethany speaks to what I can expect once I follow the path of being lovingly powerful. Interesting how this theme of relaxation keeps coming up, and here it seems to indicate that if I allow myself to own my path with loving power, I will be able to relax at in a wonderful restorative way which will feel delicious. Almost as if the act of claiming my power as a a lightworker will allow me to relax, so I can continue to receive Divine information and then continue to walk my path. As if part of my soul’s path is to use relaxation as an actual art or path that will revel more divine information to me to then move out again and share with the world. Relaxation opens my body up to spirit. The more I can open to angel’s help to care for myself deeply, the more faith and trust I will develop in the angels themselves and then be able to teach and speak from a place of authenticity.

“Your children on Earth and in Heavan are happy and well cared for by God and the angels.” Opal speaks on how to keep abundance flowing in my life. This card was the most confusing at first. It seemed to suggest that I could keep abundance flowing by releasing worry about having children within a specified amount of time. A reminder that God and the angels are watching over the souls of my children in the etheric world and to I can keep abundance flowing by moving from trust on my Divine path. However, I wondered if instead, this may mean that by having children I could literally keep abundance flowing. This second interpretation felt less true, but sparked worry. So I drew another card to clarify.

“Your desired outcome will occur in the very near future. Have patience and faith, and don’t try to force it to happen.” Azure clarified the situation perfectly! I felt confirmed in my first reading, that I should stay positive and remember the “how” is handled by a higher source. I should surrender and trust the fear of needing to have a child soon because of my endometriosis. Surrendering that sense of worry will allow the essence of abundance to keep flowing in.

What a great reading. I just remembeed the moments of exaltation I felt when I first posted my teacher training for hoopdance. It was a feeling of absolute bliss. I had an inspiration, I felt called, and put myself out there, not really caring if even one person signed up because I felt like I was meeting the Divine call to own my own power and urge to connect and give. And then the response was fantastically positive. I sense that the same process will come with my path involving angels and lightwork. If I walk the path out of bliss and because it feels so good, instead of expecting anything coming from the outside to give me happiness or a sense of success, it will all unfold divinely! The joy will be experienced within simply because I am letting myself channel the light of Divine inspiration. And I sense that moving from that place will also magically and magnetically attract abundance into my life beyond my wildest dreams.

7am: Last night I had a dream that Kramer and I were considering buying a property in Hawaii. It was inland on 4 acres of flat land with lots of trees. We were looking at the structure and noticing that it was close to a country style road. Kramer seemed to have hesitations that it was so close to the road. I wasn’t completely sold on the structure itself.

7:30am:This morning while washing my face I got a strong sense that I need to develop my psychic abilities to be able to read for just one person in order to hold space for very large groups… almost as if facilitating large groups would require the same skills and individual readings but on a much larger scale. I need to educate myself more in this area.

8:10am Immediately taking action on this, I did a reading on myself for my life mission using Doreen’s “Messages From Your Angels” deck. I decided if I am attending the ATP training, I had better get acquainted with actually doing full readings with her cards.

I asked, “what is the next step in fulfilling my life mission?”
1. What I’ve learned in the past: CARESSA card (ending one cycle of life and beginning a new happy one)
2. What I’m currently learning: AURORA (I’m flying high, stay there! Others will be inspired from my example.
3. What steps to take right now: YVONNE (Animals, I have a bond with them)
4. How I can best help others: OMEGA (Victory!)
5. Your life purpose: ASTARA (Reach for the stars with your dreams and desires and don’t compromise)

To me, this felt very accurate! Today we moved into our new office… ending the cycle of having the office merged with our home and beginning the new separation. Also, ending my being merged identity wise with the company. I am learned how to stay “high” in love right now, how to maintain my enthusiasm despite outside situations and soaring from my expanded awareness. I’m a bit confused by the step to take now relating to animals. I REALLY want a Chihuahua. I think about it every day, but I am afraid to ask Brenda. Not sure to do about this one. It seems I can best help others by being successful and this feels right. I feel like people enjoy watching me succeed in ways which are empowering and truthful. Also, my desire literally came to fruition today when I got something I have been waiting for a long time. Basically it seems the best way I can help others is by listening to my own divine guidance! My life purpose seems inspired by the image of this card… an angel reaching out to touch a being of light. It seems as if maybe my life purpose is to listen to my divine guidance and reach for the stars, or light beings, and share my happiness as a holy aspect of my mission. Also it seems that my life mission involves embracing the infinite abundance that comes from being able to ask for divine help.

8:45amWalking down the street and 3 hispanic construction worker gyus stopped conversation and just all turned to face me will full intense stares which felt devouring, I called on Archangel Michael for protection and the biggest guy truned around and put his back to me, blocking the others from me as well.

9amMeditation… I asked which angels were watching over me… Jophiel on my right shoulder and Emma on my left, meeting a shorter women with brown, olive skin, a big almost Jewish looking nose and thick facilal skin in almost heavy wrinklescurly hair 60’s, going to a beach with white sands soon…

9:45amListening to Divine Guidance and I got a strong feeling about a divine council spoken about in Think and Grow Rich and the next thing she said on the CD was a reference to Think and Grow Rich and Napoleon Hill.

11am Later in the morning I actually saw a woman who matched the description I saw in my vision … the owner of Reverie? But I didn’t “meet” her.

6:30 At Crystal Way I consider two more of Doreen’s decks. On the back of one, I see a card for “Jophiel” half revealed and since this was the name of the angel who is supposed to be on my right shoulder, I immediately decide to get the deck. I actually get both the Archangels and Ascended Masters decks since they accompany the book I already have.

I later learned Jophiel is the angel of organization and nature, two things which I had immersed myself in right in the beginning of the day.

7:30pmWhile driving I realize, yet again how egoic my previous rejection of Doreen Virtue was. I thought because her work seemed “simple” it wasn’t deep or as meaningful. I now realize that her profound personal story is very empowering and the tools which she provides are profound in how their simplicity reveals depth. It is the ego who says that things have to be complex to be deep or spiritual. Love is simple! Love is Source. We are love.

8:30pmAfter looking over the decks, I realize I made assumption about the quality of her work based on the imagery in her decks. The fact that some of the art feels inconsistent within decks, that sometimes it is very sci-fi comic book like and childlike is what created this “less than serious” idea I had about her. While not all of the cards resonate artistically with me, I am still committed to looking beyond the images to the essence and spiritual teachings within them. I have a feeling that there is much more than meets the eye here!

So last night I taught two hoop classes. I went there with no expectations, and some hot passionate Brazillian music. It was an amazing confirmation of what relaxing and letting go can do to open the way for the fantastic.

It was flowing quite high from all the inner spiritual work I have been doing lately and was right in the pocket while teaching... in that in-between place of effortlessly speaking and sensing the great time students were having, while simutaneously feeling myself having a great time with how effortless it was. I realized afterwards as I was walking away that *this* is the pefect place to teach from... total presence, love and energy flowing! I realized how lucky I am to be able to have this sensation in my body, of doing in the moment exactly what I am supposed to be doing! I feel so lucky to be able to teach hoopdance. I *know* the work I am doing is part of my own Divine path and unfolding!

Interesting as well because this is at a gym I work for, the only gig like this I have in which I am "working for someone ese", and my manager apologized because she hadn't gotten me my paycheck on time. I shrugged it off and said, not to worry and that I wasn't there for the money. I was completely serious. She paused for a minute to take it in and I thought for the first time about the money that would come, and thought, "Oh, that would be a nice treat!" as an afterthought. But honestly, this is the first time in my life I have taken a paying job where I had to show up at regular weekly times for months, which is100% for the experience without any "need" for the money it would yield.

My reasons for teaching at this gym are simply for professional experience and learning what it is like to hold space in that kind of streamlined gym environment, instead of a dance studio. I am there to self educate myself about modifying my classes for students with strictly fitness needs so I can relate to all students better and develop my work. Honestly, I would make 10x more money teaching my own class.

But there was this vaccum when I said it and when I reflected upon it again later... an air pressure change around me where i had a realization of how good it felt to be able to say to someone that I am doing something simply because I wanted to be there, not for the money. I realized that I have been writing about this in my 15 minute miracles... that I wish to be able to do everything only from desire, not from need... and it is already beginning to happen.

All is well and unfolding perfectly!

I wanted to just give a shout out to Doreen Virtue. As I mentioned before, I have had her books and materials for years, but was skeptical for my own fear-based reasons. Perhaps because the booked opened with so much "God" talk, and that wording of the Divine didn't resonate before... whatev. What's cool is that over the last week I opened it again and readily absorbed all the loving stories contained in her book, "The Lightworker's Way". There is power in simplicity. Her story is so inspirational and hearing about her own humanity, doubts, and winding path to awakening has been very affirming.

Great insights:

"There are big differences between the true innner guide and the voice of the ego. First, inner guide instructions are loving and positive, while the ego's advice is based in fear, contempt, and beliefs in scarcity. The inner guide occassionally tells us to take sudden action, but it never uses fear tactics of belittling words. Second, the inner guide's voice usually leaves you with a feeling of certianty, and you just know that you must follow your intuition."

"As lightworkeres, we volunteered to come during crucial earth times before and after the year 2000 to spread our loving energies and dissipate destructive mass consciousness. Most of us came for teh specific purpose of using our knowledge of healing to teach, write, consel, heal, or enlighten others on Earth."

"We each created a basic life plan for ourselves before incarnation. However, we made this life plan for ourselves while we were fully in our "true self" state of mind. After incarnation, we got trapped in thoughts about materiality, and our ego mind developed. Yet, every lightworker with whom I've spoken always tells me how they know, deep down, that they are here on Earth for a higher purpose".

"Many lightworkers have faint ideas or gut feelings about the life they are supposed to be living. Yet they feel undeserving or unqualified to follow their intuitive urges... the only choice available to lightworkers is to stop giving air time to our egos, and to allow our healed true self to shine forth."

The exploration continues...

Remember those adventure books in which you would read, then stop and make a choice about how the character would proceed? Then you would flip to a new place in the book, read on, make more choices, and finally end at a totally unique place? The covers of those books said, "CHOOSE YOUR OWN ADVENTURE # whatever, You're the Star of the Story! Choose From 15 Possible Endings!". When I was a kid I used to read dozens of these, but I haven't thought of them in over 15 or 20 years now.

Yesterday I woke up somewhat grouchy about living here in the city. I woke up and basically wanted to roll out the door and onto a hiking trail, into a wonderful nest of green energy, but instead I rolled out onto the concrete sidewalk and walked down to Golden Gate Park. While the walk soothed my mini freakout in the moment, it was a momentary band-aid.

Something within me has been whispering, then softly speaking, then talking forcefully, and now yelling somewhat deafening at me about "being in the green", which translates to me moving to a slower place with mountains, trees, waters and luminous like-minded people living life at a slower pace. A place where an exciting Friday night activity is a group freestyle dance event or two back-to-back yoga classes. The message is clear... if I am to stay in the Bay Area, I must move to Marin. If I can be anywhere in California, I am to move back to Santa Barbara, if I can live anywhere at all, then the best choice would be for me to move to the Hawaiian Islands. I just *know* this.

But, I'm STUCK (with capital letters). I am married. And the man I am married to and love in many ways won't budge, and is so passionate about the City and nightlife and his social network that I likely doubt he will *ever* budge, at least not soon enough for me. Enter the "Choose Your Own Adventure # whatever" concept. It was like a flash while I was on my walk. I was strolling along, talking to my angels, and suddenly thought to myself "why am I choosing to be stuck?"

Which brings on a whole slew of intense questions:

Why have I chosen to be with my husband? Really?
Why did I choose to move to San Francisco?
Why do I choose to remain in the habitual pattern of everyday city life when I'm not happy here?
Why do I choose to live without the warm sun on my skin?
Why do I choose to feel alone?
Why do I choose to feel powerless in this moment?

and, here's the kicker...
Why do I chose to let my husband's wants and needs dictate *my* life adventure?

I am just so 125% aware of my deep inner guidance to be in another place, living at another pace, so utterly, so completely, that I can't help but ask myself.. whatz up??? Why have I chosen to be stuck? The beauty of my business is that I can basically function from anywhere on the planet... Enter the flash of the book, "You're the Star of the Story! Choose From 15 Possible Endings!" line...

Why am I choosing to let someone else choose for me what I KNOW what I want to choose?
Why do I choose to let his choices be my choices?
Why am I choosing to become aware of this reality and do nothing about it immediately?
Why am I choosing to squish my life path?
Again, why am I choosing to remain powerless?

What is the payoff??

I CHOOSE EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE. Holy macaroni! What a realization. It's the kind of thing that shows up in momentary aha's, then subsides, but my mind has really got a hold on this one. I've had it for a full 24 hours now, and I woke up thinking about it this morning.

Yesterday I picked up, "Lessons From the Light" by Dr. Kenneth Ring, the world's foremost expert on NDE, Near Death Experiences. In it, he shares the remarkably similar experiences ALL people have when they are dying, which, for those who come back, has life changing effects. One of the most remarkable things is that most people who have a NDE have what is called a "life review", where their entire lives pass before their eyes, everything, in the most details imaginable, from birth to death. I've only made it to page 27 so far, but my skimming in the bookstore informed me that this life review experience inspires realizations about *what really maters*, *what we choose* and *how our choices effect others* (mainly, do we bring more loving kindness into the world? because that is all that matters!).

So with these NDE life reviews in mind, I am wondering to myself, when I look back on my life when I am dying, what will I see? What choices will I have made? What fears will I realize I have had? What will I realize I could have done differently but chose not to? Will I have any regrets? What human life adventure will I have chosen, of all the megabillions of possible lives I could have created for myself?

So here I am at 6:38 on Saturday morning, contemplating. I know there is a shift waiting to happen within me. I'm trying to be compassionate and loving with it so it can emerge...

Amazing art for today's blog from Lisa Iris! www.lisairis.bizland.com

I began this morning with my blog... then surfing audible.com, randomly listening to large sample chunks of Donald Neale Walsh’s, Caroline Myss, and Sonia Choquette works. Downloaded some new goodies – Trust Your Vibes and Communion with God… after which I realized I seem to be on a reading and listening rampage lately, absorbing so much spiritual writing like a sponge!

I began an overhaul my tribe profile. looking at it or the first time in a long while and realizing, it’s all about ME ME ME and my company, realizing I just couldn’t even relate to it anymore. I realize I created that profile as a business profile, not a Christabel profile, so I started trimming away, hiding some things, adding a few new things that truly represent where I am starting to blossom in my life. I particularly added a very inspirational video, Teachers of the Light which felt good.

Then I packed my book, Lessons from the Light, and headed up north. My gameplan for the day: drive north to Marin County with no destination, explore, eat, wander, then head over to an open house at the Berkeley Psychic Institute, then to a gathering held by a spiritual teacher who was referred to me by someone who reads my blogs (Thea) but whom I have never met. So it definitely felt like an adventurous day! Kramer was wiped from having gotten in at 5am from parties and I was actually glad to be solo so I could immerse myself in the experience.

While driving I laughed and laughed and laughed! I have been doing my laughter practice daily but at interesting times – when I do dishes, while cleaning and while driving. I try to keep it contained at stop lights or when cop cars are nearby so people don’t think I am insane. But as soon as I pass I open my windows again and go for it! It felt absolutely wonderful.

I found myself heading for Café Gratitude in San Rafael, where I luxuriated in the sun while eating a leisurely breakfast. I am devouring this book about Near death experiences. Inspired by Doreen Virtue mentioning such books in her Lightworkers Way, I have been amazed and touched very deeply by these accounts. I almost feel as if I am vicariously learning from these stories about what is really most important in life, and also receiving confirmation about unconditionally loving light being the essence of humans and the universe. It is helping me put together the pieces of the human puzzle of incarnation, and just reading about the NDEs gives me a contact high of love, hearing how the experience can totally transform lives. Meanwhile, my waitress riveted my attention with the following phrase, “we are a transformational school disguised as a restaurant.” It reminded me … life is a transformational soul school disguised as a mortal human experience.

It felt time to wander, so I drove further north to Fairfax. WOW! I love Fairfax. I have a STONG sense that this is wher