How can I hold onto it? At moments it feels so easy... I'll be meditating and feel clear and relaxed... then I hear the pots and pans clanking in the background, trash being taken out, crunching and crinkling of plastic bags and paper as my guy walks around the kitchen ...and I feel this surge of irritation well up and totally forget where my visualization had been going. I raise the volume on my ipod but realize now the magic spell I made has been broken.

I've been dealing with some challenging emotions lately. Most notably, how can I stay centered enough to respond instead of react? How can I be so clear that I can withstand being around those with depression and anger and stay positive? I feel like I am in a bit of a spiritual crisis at the moment because realize I have gotten into the habit of emotionally withdrawing. When someone emotionally close to me is walking around with a dark cloud, in some ways I f-e-e-l that cloud around myself... like a yucky sticky icky I can't get off. It feels very unpleasant to be around. I feel trapped because I think I should be compassionate and present, but really I just want to run away and live in my own bubble of joy. Especially when the person with the yucky sticky icky has no interest in letting go of their heavy energy. I just want to be miles away.

I realize I've gotten into the habit of completely unplugging and becoming distant and emotionally removed as a way not to feel the dark sticky icky. I just sort of float around doing tasks, a bit out of my own body, so I don't feel it. But now that it has become a habit I realize it is dysfunctional and creating it's own dark sticky icky around *my* heart. So that brings me to today's topic to work on in my 15 minute miracle... how can I hold onto the light? As always, I welcome any insights or ideas from those who have walked this path before me!

Today, Thursday August 23, 2007, is a clean slate for me to enjoy. As long as I can CHOOSE my thoughts, I can CHOOSE what I attract and create in my life. Starting today, my ongoing intention is to find wise and loving ways to stay centered in light and joy so I can truthfully respond and be present at all times.

I am so grateful for our heater because it keeps me warm and toasty when it is cold out! I am grateful for all our plants which surround me because I love looking at their bright green colors. I love the wonderful clothes I am lucky to have because they are colorful and fun to wear. I am appreciative of the wonderful friends in my life who offer me so many insights and so much love. I love the abundance which comes to me easily all the time. I am thankful for all the wonderful foods I can obtain to eat because they provide me with nutrition and yummy tastes. I am thankful for all the wonderful people in my life who help manifest the HoopGirl vision with their wonderful talents and generosity of spirit. I am thankful for all my wise and enthusiastic mentors who's insights allow me to find my own way with ease. Thank you!

I love it when I feel exhilerated because everything feels fascinating and fun, which makes it easier for me to open my heart and live my passion.

I use my breathe to stay cenetred in my bliss and joy.

With grace and love, I am able to easily remove myself all situations which are not in my highest good.

I am always protected and safe, surrounded by flocks of angels who surround and fill me with brilliant luminous light.

I love all the people I spend time with because their radiance and positivity inspires me to be the best I can be.

Every day is like one series of miracles after another and I know that life can always be this way!

I love everything about my life and everyone who is in it because I can choose the reality I want to create.

I now have enough strength and courage to live my life in love with love, regardless of outside circumstances.

I love that I can be myself and be happy!

I now feel light, free and grateful.

I now invite assistance from the Loving Power that dwells within me and All Life Everywhere. Dear Source and ALL who walk with me in Love and Light, Thank you for your divine guidance, unconditional love, and ongoing support. If it is in the highest good for me and All of Life Everywhere, please divinely orchestrate the following in just the perfect time.

Help me feel protected, luminous and invincible at all times.

Surround me with positive energies which inspire and encourage me to let my light shine.

Instill me with renewed courage to speak my truth and live my joy.

Show me the best way to know how to live and speak in total integrity.

I completely trust You to take care of all the details and know that everything is already naturally falling into place for me with amazing ease.

I am now ready to release and let go of any responsibility for the emotional states of others, plus ALL issues (both known and unknown) that prevent me from living my best life now. This act of releasing enables me to relax and feel safe in every way.

With enormous gratitude, I now agree to RECIEVE these and even greater gifts in just the perfect time in delightful ways that bless and benefit All of Life Everywhere!

Thank you!

(Art for today's blog by www.heartsoulvision.com. What beautiful luminous art!)