My whole body is buzzing from the meditation I just completed, in which I was visualizing anchoring light into every cell of my body. Sometimes my inner skeptic rears up and wonders, "is this nuts?" or my mind wanders onto mundane topics for a moment, but I just patiently call myself back to breathing and imagining solar light. It feels pretty darned yummy to imagine solar light since San Francisco can be rather overcast and chilly at times.

All I know is when I do these meditations, my days flow easier, I feel more connected, relaxed and happy. So I have surrendered every morning for the past several weeks. I go straight to the meditation cushion once i wake up, do several minutes of breathing meditation, imagine my body being filled and cleansed with light, and then I do a guided Orin meditation from orindaben.com, then my 15 minute miracle practice. All in all, it takes about an hour and fifteen minutes to do all this internal energetic prepping for the day. Which has definately cut into my hooping time, but again, I feel it is important for me right now.

I keep the details of my meditations generally to myself... my husband would loose himself in giggles if I told him about the angels I have been calling into my life or the energy I am visualizing growing brighter in my body. Sometimes I feel the urge to share this energy adventure on my blog because it imparts such a beautiful wonderessence into my body, a light feeling of awe and brightness. It is a feeling of relief from being human, having human emotional reactions and concerns. It is a feeling of Divine Will, bringing a purpose into my life which is of my higher self, egoless and connected to all things. But lately I have been feeling this compulsion to share all. So again, I am surrendering.

I have been particularly fascinated with angels lately. Not the gothic, stoic, Catholic kind in long white robes sitting on churches and in stained glass, though I do respect people's belief in those images. I've been contemplating angels as beings of bright shining light devoted to uplifting humanity to the next level. And angels as people living in my life doing miraculous things to bring more grace into the world. Accessible angels... disco angels, flossing reminder angels, laughing angels, and angels of general protection. Generally just flocks of super hot, sexy angels. Granted, I am leting my mind roam free with it's own images. I haven't had a "visitation" or a shaft of light beam into my room at night and wake me from sleep (unless my husband was just coming into the room late). I don't hear voices. I live a sort of ordinary life of daily tasks to accomplish. But there has been a shift of awareness. Welcoming a larger perception of reality, and a realization that I can consciously invite the miraculous into my life. And I can let it be fun, playful and sweet. It is nice. So there's my mad confession. I'm starting to believe in angels.

I used to live with a bright shiney friend named Dawn. She was SO into angels and while I loved her and everything about her energy, the angel interest was just totally inaccessible. But recently, my interest was piqued at the 15 Minute Miracle gathering I attended several weeks back where I met a woman named Bridget who does Angel Therapy. I instantly gravitated towards her, not knowing why, but fascinated by her "inner sparkle". As she shared more of her work, I realized I was really wanting to connect with the idea, but lacked any physical, mental, emotional or spiritual "evidence" to believe. Funny enough, when I was in town later that night, I can across a a small angelic stature that had a message underneath, "Angels believe in YOU". It was an interesting shift. I was thinking, "whoa! Apparently even if I don't believe in these beings, they have chosen to believe in me! Wow!". So I got the little statue and it has been reminding me to try believing in the unseen.

After all, so much of what we rely on in our daily lives is unseen! We take so much on faith. Though invisible, these foroces dramatically effect my life! (In the playshop, we talked about this too)

Check it: gravity, temperature, oxygen, love, faith, joy, gratitude, radiation, magnetism, meridians, goals, inflation, the stock market, money, ancestry, kindness, time, beliefs, sensations, sound, thoughts! All these things greatly impact human life even though we can't see them. They are ideas....

So I'm on this nexus between thought and reality, hypersensitive to the power to truely attract into my life what I think about and experiementing with this idea that I can attract some angels into my life by giving it more thought, more of my awareness... an open invitation. We shall see what unfolds...

Ramble, ramble. Onto the meditation so I can get my hoop on at least for little while.

Today, Wednesday August 23, 2007, is a clean slate for me to enjoy. As long as I can CHOOSE my thoughts, I can CHOOSE what I attract into my life. Starting today, my ongoing intention is to find authentic and wonderful ways to connect with my higher self and divine purpose.

I am so grateful for the bright blue sky and shining sunlight today because it is a lovely treat. I am delighted about Burning Man and all the spectacular friends I will see because they bring so much inspiration into my life. I am grateful for my fantastic body because it works so well and is so healthy and ncie to look at. I enjoy all the abundance which has come into my life in wonderful friends, exciting opportunities and unexpected positive events because being alive is a great gft. I am grateful for emotions because they teach me so much about being alive.

I love it when I feel wonder. When I feel this way, I feel my entire body relax, I lighten up and feel open and receptive.

I now feel joyful clarity about my divine purpose in this lifetime and how to live in a way which brings more grace, miracles and love into the world.

I lead a happy, easygoing life where I can clearly understand my intuitive inner-knowing and act in ways which are in my highest good.

I have a sexy, romantic relationship with my husband based on play, love and laughter which feels fantastic!

Money is flying at me from all directions in larger and larger amounts!

I have consciously designed a lifestyle and business which easily provides for all my needs and desires while also bringing more brightness and positivity into the world.

I spend my time relaxing, travelling to wonderful exotic places, playing, dancing, hooping and having fun while the money just keeps rolling in!

We have a wonderful home on the Hawaiian islands which provides a sanctuary for my heart and soul, allowing me to live a relaxed tropical lifestyle while I continue to do effortless collaborative work with inspiring geniuses.

I now feel a deep knowing that I am in the perfect place at the perfect time. I feel happy and hopeful.

I now invite assistance from the Loving Power that dwells within me and All of Life Everywhere. Dear Spirit and ALL who walk with me in Love and Light. Thank you for your perfect guidance, unconditional love and ongoing support! With enormous gratitude i now agree to RECIEVE these and even greater gifts in the perfect time in delightful ways that bless and benefit All of Life Everywhere.

Thank you!

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