While waiting for a cab for over twenty minutes at 2:00am this morning, amidst the cat calls and drunken shouts from staggering club goers, "show me your hula hoop!" I had a realization. I am done. I performed in clubs over two years. It was amazing. I learned so much. I was inspired and moved to grow in so many ways. But I feel complete. The environment does not feel pure. Not that it ever did, but it seems my sensitivity has gone up. I just can't deal with the messy people and the alcoholic vibe.

I am ready for a big change. A big shift. A lifestyle change of conscious choices which I feel are right for ME. Being married to a dj who's life revolves around this sort of environment, it was easy to slip into the entire culture and run with it. After all, I had a lot of success! But after the incredibly profound juicy week of Nia white belt training I just had, I feel unsatisfied by the club performance experience.

I am much more interested in teaching, working with primarily women making choices to get healthy and empowered and transform. If I am performing, I want it to be in larger more commercial projects which have a larger reward and learning opportunities. Also, in general I am much more interested in creating new lifestyle habits of yoga, healthy eating and other conscious community.

I choose radiant health and healing at every turn and in every way. I am making this choice bravely and with the belief that my marriage can still flourish even if I grow into being a person very different from my husband. It is okay for us to have different interests and approaches to life. I ask Creator to remind me at every turn to do what is right for ME, helping to amplify my radiance and happiness. I ask Creator to help me make the choices that restore youthful exhuberance to my being. I am so thankful for the strength to honor my intuition! I am so excited that so many new friends are coming into my life who have life affirming interests and hobbies. I am so happy that I feel at home here in the city amongst so many people who share the same approach to life that I do. Thank you Creator for surrounding me with a loving community of healthy, athletic, spiritually minded, wildly successful, empowered women.