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December 3, 2006

Back in the mix and having realizations...

While waiting for a cab for over twenty minutes at 2:00am this morning, amidst the cat calls and drunken shouts from staggering club goers, "show me your hula hoop!" I had a realization. I am done. I performed in clubs over two years. It was amazing. I learned so much. I was inspired and moved to grow in so many ways. But I feel complete. The environment does not feel pure. Not that it ever did, but it seems my sensitivity has gone up. I just can't deal with the messy people and the alcoholic vibe.

I am ready for a big change. A big shift. A lifestyle change of conscious choices which I feel are right for ME. Being married to a dj who's life revolves around this sort of environment, it was easy to slip into the entire culture and run with it. After all, I had a lot of success! But after the incredibly profound juicy week of Nia white belt training I just had, I feel unsatisfied by the club performance experience.

I am much more interested in teaching, working with primarily women making choices to get healthy and empowered and transform. If I am performing, I want it to be in larger more commercial projects which have a larger reward and learning opportunities. Also, in general I am much more interested in creating new lifestyle habits of yoga, healthy eating and other conscious community.

I choose radiant health and healing at every turn and in every way. I am making this choice bravely and with the belief that my marriage can still flourish even if I grow into being a person very different from my husband. It is okay for us to have different interests and approaches to life. I ask Creator to remind me at every turn to do what is right for ME, helping to amplify my radiance and happiness. I ask Creator to help me make the choices that restore youthful exhuberance to my being. I am so thankful for the strength to honor my intuition! I am so excited that so many new friends are coming into my life who have life affirming interests and hobbies. I am so happy that I feel at home here in the city amongst so many people who share the same approach to life that I do. Thank you Creator for surrounding me with a loving community of healthy, athletic, spiritually minded, wildly successful, empowered women.

December 18, 2006

The Pure Life in Costa Rica

December 5-10 I was lucky enough to travel to Costa Rica to perform at a beachside wedding. Even from the airplane before we landed, the land was fascinating. We flew over mountainous, hilly land parcels with amazingly ordered farming plots, then estates with pools, and then to the capital city, San Jose. 8 hours after landing, we finally arrived at our beachside bungalows in Santa Theresa, after hours of driving on dirt roads and a beautiful ferry ride.

The land is so beautiful and feels so clean and fresh. The people were so outgoing and kind. Everything feels so alive and there is so much wild nature -- jungle and beach, everywhere, overflowing with creepy crawlies and birds and sweat drenching humidity. It was a welcome relief after the chill of San Francisco!

Lots of mosquitoes. The scurrying of hermit crabs swarming on fallen coconuts. Riding a crazy school bus turned "Party Bus" which almost backed off the road into a ravine. Finding completly isolated beaches with Kramer and collecting bumpy, colorful shells. Sand caught on wet feet in flip flops. Purple flashing lightening illuminating the night sky before a storm...

Perfoming there was like a dream. We stayed at the same location as the entire wedding party for the weekend. Kramer djed in a thatched hut while I performed between the palm trees on the sand with my led hoop. The land was on an angle and I had to look up to make sure hoop tosses wouldn't hit the trees. Dancing on an angle is always an interesting challenge, but it worked out. I slipped a bit on the sand and rocks, but luckily remembered to breathe and slow down and just enjoy myself. Since there were few other lights aside from my hoop, I had to be careful not to whirl off center and into the crowd which was a dark mass surrounding me on all sides. Overall, it was thrilling and the crowd was mezmerized and very appreciative. I wore two different costumes and rocked the house with very interactive shows where I particularly engaged the bride and groom to come out and dance with me while I hooped... it was a blast!

The staff rigged up a whirling multicolored discoball in the roof of the thatched hut where Kramer was set up and everyone thumped and grooved to tribal beats late into the night.... even the grey haired parents of the bride and groom! It was one of those evenings of radiant, unbridled happiness and I just couldn't stop smiling.

The days there were spent swimming in the ocean, and hooping or lying on the beach, listening to, "Practicing the Power of Now" or other tunes on our i-pod speaker system while Kramer surfed. We chatted with tourists very different from ourselves, like investment bankers, and felt grateful for our lives.

It is easy to see why the country motto is, "Pura Vida", the pure life! it really is a gorgeous, green vibrant magnet for life saturating energy. We were lucky that the tip of the country we visited also happened to be relatively isolated and undeveloped so it really had the feel of being "out there", lacking any mega developments. I left having a clear feeling that I would return to the location where we stayed (Luz de Vida -- The Light of Life) and lead a hoop retreat of some kind there. The space is perfect! Also, I am thinking of staying on to shoot the second instructional DVD there as well with the Allstars. The cascading waterfalls, lush jungle and delicious beaches are exactly the type of environment I want in my DVDs -- whisking watchers into another land and a whole other way of feeling. Languid. Sweet. Relaxed. Peaceful. Sensual. Joyous. Strong! I am still working out the dates and the idea... you will know more when I do!

Creator, I want to really say thank you so much for bringing me to visit the radiant land of Costa Rica. I love the jungles and beaches and beauty and warmth! I am so excited to go back there and share this feeling of connection and sexy naturalness with as many people as I can by shooting my next DVD there and leading retreats where those attending can let go, relax and have fun! Thank you for bringing all the perfect people and events into alignment to make this happen in an effortless and joyful way. I so appreciate the gift of being given time to enjoy and renew my body temple. I am so happy to have so many opportunities to connect with inspiring powerful women who are co-collaborating on so many exciting projects with me! Yea for the pure life! I feel the sparkling essence of pure coursing through my viens and nourishing me on a deep level, no matter where I am. I carry the luminescent essence of Costa Rica in my heart and in the vibration of every cell in my body! I speak, dance, live and exist in ways which make my life the ultimate tropical paradise! I bring the resonance of paradise into the core of my being. I am healed. I am instantly rejeuvinated. I have access to an infinite wellspring of eternal youth. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

December 22, 2006

Hooping Adventure in London

When I was in London in October, I choreographed and starred in a hooping instructional DVD called, "Hulaerobics".

Last week I got back from London where I was hired by Heart to do some more work. The same afternoon I got off the 12.5 hour plane ride there, I went over to a place called, The Studio, for a 2 hour photoshoot. Somehow the company which took the promotional pictures of me during the commercial shoot in South Africa lost the images, so Heart needed to come up with new ones.

In the same fashion as many recent Nike ads they produced, a British advertising company shot images of me crossing a 10 foot space doing as many hoop moves as I could. The effect created is of blurred movement with occassional clear shots in between the blurs, ending in a final posed shot. After crossing the space dozens of times, with variations with both one and two hoops, they had a computer full of images. They will draw the best parts from all the images and put them all together in a continuous image long enough to go all along the side of British double decker buses in 2007! They will also be putting the image on massive billboards on the side of a few buildings!

I never in my life imagined I would be on a billboard, or on the side of buses. It was a bummer the South African ad company lost the orginal pictures, but I am quite thrilled about this opportunity!

The next day I went to Virgin Active, now the largest fitness chain in the UK. Virgin Active has created an alliance with Heart and will be providing classes in Hulaerobics in 2007. They hired me to train the master trainers at Virgin Active so they can train all the chain's fitness teachers how to teach hooping. Again, quite a thrill. I never considered myself a master fitness expert... a pro hooper yes, but fitness guru? Somehow I am lucky enough to have been able to take dance art and translate it to the languaging and consciousness of fitness. I am so glad I took the American Aerobics and Fitness Assocation group fitness certification as it is helping me spread the word of the hoop so much further.

I once had a lot of resistance to the world of fitness. What was I so scared of? That I would be less of an artist by using the languaging of health and wellness? That the art would be reduced by being understood and respected by those it the exercise realm? The reality is that when I am rockin the hoop at the most blissful moments, it is the most incredible rush of cardiovascular wellness and muscular responsiveness that I have ever experienced! The essence of the hoop is meditative bliss and creative expression, but also at the same time it can be a sexy workout that makes wellbeing accessible to many people. Why resist something with so much potential for goodness?

Also, as someone who has chosen to exist soley from income raised by hula hooping, I must remain open minded and flexible about the various opportunities that organically arise. I am so glad I have! My mind has been opened and my awareness has grown as a result. It sure keeps life exciting.

During the Virgin Active training day, I broke for a Japanese sushi lunch with a reporter form one of the largest newspapers in the UK. After the whole day was over, I was shipped over to a sound studio to record some spoken phrases which they will be using on the radio to promote the Hulaerobics DVD and classes.

The third and final day in London I taught a master class for the media. It was a bit of a frenzy, with reporters all there from a variety of UK magazines and newspapers, including Elle, Weight Watchers, Health and Fitness and many others. I did a demo class and then went to Thai lunch with another reporter for a very long interview. I have to say that this interview was the most in-depth and profound I have experienced yet.

I have done a LOT of interviews. Most reporters ask the same questions over and over again. "What are the benefits of hooping?" "How much weight did you loose?" "Why is it a good workout?". This reporter went so far beyond these superficial questions. She wanted to know all about how hooping has changed me on other, more profound energetic levels. She asked about my 2 surguries for endometriosis and how having the sacral chakra dierctly operated on effected my hooping. She asked about the feelings of hooping, how it was empowering as a woman. She wanted to know my story, and as much about my own personal transformation as I would share. This is one article in particular I can't wait to see! I'll put a note in my newsletter when it comes out.

I am so overwhelmed by how responsive the Universe is to my wishes! I asked to become a media spokesperson for the hoopdance movement, and as a result so many opportunities have come to me. Thank you! I am ready to bump it up another notch to the next level! I am so grateful for the ability to clearly articulate the joy of hooping so that tens of thousands more people are inspired to try it out. I am also grateful that my own path of personal transformation is continuing to unfold while I do this work.... Yahoo for the Universe!

Kinky fitness: the iGallop!

I was on my way to Connecticut, with a layover in the Philadelphia airport, when I happened upon the OSIM iGallop at Brookstone. It is a small machine with a bright purple cushion. I couldn't resist mounting up and riding the bucking broncho, which tosses and turns your pelvis while you hang on to handlbars and clench with your thighs to hold on. Supposedly it tones your core, back, thighs and works your abs. You can choose from various speeds which simulates the movement of riding a horse at different speeds. This has to be the raunchiest workout machine I have ever encountered. First of all, it is totally hilarious. I couldn't hold back from hysterical laughter, epecially while ramping up the speed. Your whole pelvis vibrates while the machine tosses you forward and back with very vigourous movements. Honestly, despite being funny and provocative, it was so much fun! But is it really exercise? Being an advocate for fun pleasure-workouts, I feel oddly compelled to get one and ride the nights away in our livingroom when the tv is on. My only hesitation... the price tag of $500. I can't quite justify shelling out so much for what could be a novelty. If anyone out there gets one, please let me me know how it "works" out for you. Meanwhile, I put a lowball bid on one at e-bay and will keep you updated.

You can watch the OSIM promotional ad at:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=hwocdImA6Z8&search=iGallop

You can also get some more giggles watching a cat ride this iGallop here:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=fWZKjtFUeco

December 26, 2006

Day 4 back in the gym

I really didn't want to go today, but I did it anyways and it felt great. Some of you have been asking me what I do when I go...

I start with 35-45 minutes of cardio on the eliptical machine at level 11.

Then I do weights on the machines, switching focus area every other day -- leg strength machines one day, arm/chest machines the next for about 15-20 minutes.

I try to do abdominal crunches every day.

I end with some stretches.

I listen to fast trance or tribal sometimes when I am unmotivated. Sometimes I listen to sermons by Michael Beckwith from Agape (www.agapelive.com) or audiobooks.

I really like the gym as a complement to other dance forms. When I go and am pouring sweat so quickly and then feeling all my muscles work, I remember how important cross training is for hoopers.

I am so glad that I have the motivation to keep going back to the gym! Thank you!

December 28, 2006

Hooping With My Mind's Eye...

Sometimes I forget the power of the mind -- but yesterday I remembered that my brain's neurosynaptic pathways cannot tell the difference between visualizing an activity and actually doing it.

So....I was on the train to New York City, listening to my i-Pod, and I decided to have a hoop rehersal. It was amazing! I went through over an hour of a vast array of music and imagined exactly what hoop and dance moves I would do to each. After a while, I noticed that I was also swaying my body in spirals, closing my eyes slightly, smiling and feeling great!

The amazing thing about imagining a rehersal is that you can try so many new things without any limitations of your body's flexibility or co-ordiation. I found myself coiling in a stall which started all the way at the floor and then went high over head in a transition which took over 2 minutes -- a speed "in reality" which could seem impossible -- but it was so long and drawn out it felt fabulous.

I also played with continual hoop flip offs at quantum speed from every side of the body until my body was surrounded by a flashing blur of hoops -- looking almost like an entire globe surrounding my body.

I worked on jumps through every side and direction of the hoop swing with legs extended and launching like a gazelle.

I was able to jump to my transitions to the floor, instead of the stable electric slides I normally do, and once there, did a wild series of capoeira-like hand springs, and knee travelling moves with under body hoop sweeps which felt exhilerating. Normally I feel a bit restricted on the floor, but I got the same hoopgasm that I experience in real life just by imagining being able to do it.

I practiced going inside the vertical isolation with my entire body and being able to stand exactly in one place while turning the hoop over itself again and again at super fast speeds but maintaining an absolutly perfect circle shape with the hoop.

I also worked on a move I call frequency, which is basically a stall which keeps changing planes around the body, so you are guiding the hoop like a frequency wace continually up and down in slow motion surrounding yourself.

Side to side body flips with the hoop while letting it percussivly bounce off my hands in front of my body, going back the other way.

Overhead side to side atomic twirl directional switches, while passing the hoop hand to hand. Underleg atomic twirl passes.

Amazing body breaks, bouncing the hoop off my thighs, buttocks, and feet with effortless speed and no uncomfortable body sensations... and so many other things that are now blurring into the train ride...

I'm hoping to bring this rememberance into 2007 -- visualized rehersals when the real deal is impractical... while driving...while commuting...while flying...

Gosh it almost feels like even when I DO have access to real hoopdance at least one day a week of imagined dance allows some fun creative breakthroughs!

Thank you!

"Animae Mundi Colendae Gratia" -- Latin for...

After doing mind's eye hoop rehersal yesterday on the train, I started surfing the web on my Blackberry. I felt as if I had somehow forgotten something very, very important during recent years. Something that I used to know, but now ... was missing.

I went to the website for Pacifica Graduate Institute. I obtained a second master's degree from Pacifica in Mythology with an emphasis in Depth Psychology after I left the the PhD program in Anthropology at UC.

This is a minor detail I have left out of all conversations with the media over the last several years. I wanted to whittle down all the confusing details to a story that was manageable. Easy to tell. The honest truth is, a story of radical change is never easy to tell because it reveals your most vulnerable sides.

I left UCSB because my doctoral advisor didn't take me seriously. I was an avid percussionist at the time, drumming daily and teaching classes, training with African teachers at every opportunity. Drumming was my life! Something about it was so primal and ful of raw, crackling energy! It really moved me. It connected me. It gave me a feeling of at-one-ment, at one with all things.

I went to Senegal, West Africa, to study djembe drumming and it's relationship to healing and crafted a dissertation proposal. I discovered some discrepencies in my plan -- djembes did not originate in Senegal, nor were they used for healing. However, something about going there seemed important because I had a dream. I had a dream about people being healed with drums.

When I was presenting my proposal to my advisor and collegues, they found it impossible to take my research methodology seriously. "What does a dream have to do with research?" they asked. I couldn't answer that, but I knew it was important. I didn't have the language to prove it but I felt it.

Professors started talking about me. Word was, I actually stayed up all night at drumming gatherings held in warehouses downtown. Word was, I actually sang Orisha songs at spiritual gatherings in the mountains. Word was I was performing drumming and dance at shows...Word was ... I was having dreams and thinking that they mattered! Of course, word didn't include that I also spent 10 hours a day at the library and up late at night, reading the thousands of pages of assigned reading and writing papers based on what the professors thought was important.

What astounded me, was that they didn't get these things I was doing! These professors of culture didn't understand or comprehend the importance of supplementing all their cerbral academic jargon with actual embodied experience!

One day my advisor sat me down in her office and told be the "honest truth". She said that if I persisted in this idea of a dissertation on drumming, no one, not one person, would attend my dissertation defense. "Drumming," she explained to me, "is simply not important enough. What we want you to write about is theory. We have a lot of theories we talk about which relate to very specific situations. You need to focus on these."

I realized then I had to go. I got my Masters Degree in Anthropology and left. I realized that this academic environment was based on the presumption that microcosms are more important than macrocosms. I realized I was interested in picking up the pieces of the world and finding a way to put them back together again -- to create holism. I was there to learn and understand how to create healing and understand larger, universal truths.

The anthropology program at UCSB was designed to slice and dice the world into microtopics which faculty members could create theories about (with or without any input from "natives") to gain a reputation of prestige and credibility. Any students studying with these professors had to do research which continued to promote their advisors ideas and theories.

I was shattered. Up until that time I had idealized that I could learn from the native traditions of peoples worldwide by studying anthropology. I realized then it was impossible. I realized anthropologists were doing, perhaps, some of the greatest dis-service to those very traditions they were supposed to be so interested in. Anthropologists themselves had become the cultural colonizers.

I went through a period of drifting. I worked as a dj and managed a flower essence store. Then one day I heard about a conference on something called, DreamTending. It was happening at a school called Pacifica Graduate Institute in Santa Barbara.

It was an amazing day. The president of the school explained the vision of the school -- ANIMAE MUNDI COLENDAE GRATIA. Latin for, "For the sake of tending the Soul of the world." The school seal had crowned serpent reading a massive book on a map of the world. Hmm... as someone who had recurring dreams of snakes, this was already fascinating.

Dr. Aizenstat said things such as, "Pacifica is dedicated to cultivating and harvesting the gifts of the human imagination...Pacifica traces many of its central ideas to the heritage of ancient story tellers, dramatists, and philosophers from all lands who recorded the workings of the imagination...the importance of symbol and metaphor in personal and cultural imagery...Each student enters graduate work carrying within his or her own dreams the seed impulse that, when cultivated, opens to personal fulfillment..." Dreams, he went on to explain in the workshop, have us access go the soul of the world.

He shared his ideas (inspired by the work of depth and archetypal psychology) with us: the world is alive, conscious, self-aware and ensouled. Humans are all connected because we have access to something Jung called, the collective unconscious -- an infinite repository of knowledge, ideas and archetypes (energized nodes of universal human experience). The imagination is a powerful tool to access information through non-thinking, creative activities such as dreams, art and play. The whole day was spent exploring dream characters as intelligent visitors who have come to communicate with dreamers to share specific information on behalf of the world's dreaming soul-- looking at them as reflections of the self as well as reflections of the world. It was a day which encouraged poetic languaging, drawing and work in small groups sharing insights.

So many years ago... it is hard to convey the excitement I felt or the exact words spoken. What I can remember is that I suddenly felt at home. I was among intellectuals who shared a view that the world was aware and sacred and it allowed such a deeper investigation of reality.

I stayed. I got a master's degree in Mythological Studies with an emphais in Depth Psychology. I voraciously devoured readings and wrote like a possessed madwoman. It was an incredible time of creativity for me. Meanwhile, I moved into my minivan and lived by a stream in the mountains. I was on a kick of puritanical living and yoga, and gave away most of my belongings except books. I graduated, moved back into my apartment and decided that I needed to start working again. I was inspired by the PhD but realized I had work to do. While at Pacifica, I also took a massage therapy training program so I could keep my awareness in my body.

I left and worked as a massage therapist at a chiropractors office and also at some retreat centers. I also began working as a personal assistant to an incredible woman who had a production and post-production company in Montecito. Every day for months, I drove up the long driveway to her multimillion dollar mansion. I ran her empire. I was shocked she hired me, as I was wildly intimidated by her wealth and presence. At the same time I learned how many issues I had to about money which needed to be healed. She taught me how to work professionally in a lifestyle that still had a strong sense of the divine connectedness of all things. This woman lived in super high integrity and opened my mind to so many things. She helped me become so much more worldly (having to place phone calls to Ravi Shankar and Jackson Brown requires you to get yourself together!) and also exposed me to a wealth of spiritual knowledge. Working for her also taught me a lot about running an office and keeping one's life running smoothly. She also allowed me to house-sit for her on occassion when she travelled. I would do yoga, meditate and sit in the hot tub overlooking all of Santa Barbara. I would wander the halls and look at images of famous friends. I would read amazing books, listen to beautiful music and soak up the vibe of spiritual goodness in all the exotic statues of dieties and beautiful tapestries. I began to imagine that one day, I could also live in a home like this. That I could be as gracious and beautiful and present as she was.

It was then, while I was working for this goddess, that I picked up my first hula hoop. The transition from UCSB to hula hooping actually had a 3 year window of events between... but how you explain this in a a cohesive way to an interviewer? I have tried and the results can be disappointing. What I learned is that reporters want a story. They don't always want all the details. You need to keep things somewhat tidy and neat and linear for a story to work.

After I had begun teaching classes, running my hoop booth at the craft faire and holding hoop jams, my boss sat me down one day and explained to me that I was an artist and had to follow this impulse. So I left her, and began working as a full time hooper... And the rest is history....

But I wanted to share with you, dear blog reader, how complex and circular the truth can really be.... I'm on vacation with nothing but time on my hands for a change, and felt like telling this story.

Thank you for listening.

December 30, 2006

Morning meditation

While sitting in meditation this morning, trying to focus on my breath and a vision for 2007, I noticed some negative feelings. Criticism within about the differences between the person I am and the person I idealize being... what a waste of energy! I knew it rationally, but it took some prayer to lighten the load...

Here are some of the ideas I played with which made a shift!

I am so excited to be experiencing growing awareness.
In every moment, I feel every strand of my dna becoming more and more resonant with light, radiance, and health.
It is easy for me to make choices which unfold my highest potential.
I am inexplicably and magnetically attracted to people, events and situations which pulse with life energy and positivity.
This feels good!

This is a moment of celebration!
This is a moment of graduation.
This is a moment of complete and unconditional self love!
I am flooded with the healing energy of complete self acceptance.
This feels good!

I understand that growth is a process of noticing. I notice everyone and everything around me and how I feel in response. Being aware of what feels good and what does not reveals divine information. This process of noticing is natural. My good feeling emotions guide me towards enriching choices. I choose ways of being which inspire me. I effortlessly welcome what I admire into my being. I let the rest go with ease. Letting go feels good!

I see myself radiating an easy-going, sensual, sophisticated, articulate, intelligent feminine energy. I express myself with words which create connection, presence, and true understanding. My body language is evolved and communicates exactly what I hope to share. I present myself to the world in a way which shines light and attracts positive resonance. I love being me!

I connect to Creator and know that my own process of growth and transformation is unfolding at the perfect rate, in the perfect way and for the most divine good! All is well.

I see a tidal wave of women friends coming into my life who enrich and inspire me. I think of all the women I love and send them light and good thoughts. I remember that all I have to do is pick up the phone to make a connection. I take responsibility for the invitation! It is effortless to be the initiator of uplifting friendships.

I take responsibility for healing my body! I know that "ailments" are really teachers here to remind me to love my body. I listen to messages from my body and take action in response. I invite wellbeing by listening deeply and responding!

My body is the perfect weight and shape. I worship the divine in my body with physical, nutritional and emotional nourishment. I love my body with meditation. I thank my body for being so vibrantly healthy with yoga. My instinct is to dance back into presence. I hoop in a daily practice which brings joy. I gravitate towards the Nia community and have fun! I treat myself to massages and the spa, the gym, hiking, long walks with inspiring friends... and the amazingly divine things coming which I haven't even imagined yet!

I know that I am already completely connected.
I am already magnificently full.
I am ripe with "yes to life!"
I am whole.
I am plugged in to the Divine web of conenction.
This feels so good!

Thank you!

Being "the student who needs help"

I went to dance class at ODC Dance Studio for the first time today in months.

I really couldn't keep up with the steps in the Fusion Rhythms class at all. Surrounding me were mostly older women and older men at various levels of fitness. Most of them were pretty much in the groove of all the dance steps. Lots of jumps, twists, turns, stepping on time and in specific ways, shaking parts of the body in specific choreography. While I can rock out and dance to my own rhythm, learning moves takes me a long time. I am not really visual .. more audio and kinesthetic. So I usually learn by making many, many mistakes and then "feeling" my way into the right move.

When they lifted right leg I usually lifted left. When the arms went up mine went down. Sure, I haven't been there in a long, time, but sheesh I really couldn't keep up! Meanwhile I had this voice in my head saying, "um... aren't you supposed to be a dance teacher?"

Meanwhile, grannies on my left and right were rockin out to Usher's "Yea" with squats and leaps while I fumbled, shaking their fists in the air with attitude. Several times the teacher looked back at me in the mirror and tried to correct my movements, but to no avail. Every now and then, she would say "smile! this is about having fun". I geuss I was frowning or something because every time she said it, she looked directly at me. It made me concentrate even more.

I knew the moment it was happening since things went into slow motion. We had formed a large inward facing dance circle and were doing the same moves. My left foot caught behind my right ankle and this wonderful airborne sensation happened ... then the loud "thud" as I landed right on my butt to a chorus of loudly drawn inhales. It seemed like the whole dance floor shook. "Are you okay?" the teacher asked as everyone kept moving. "Yea, no problem," I said confidently as I leapt to my feet and quickly scanned the room. Of course everyone was looking at me, but I just jumped back into the mix and tried to smile and stick with the steps. "It's just the floor," the teacher said, "they just re-did it." "No," I said. "It's me."

For some reason my eyes welled with tears so I just kept breathing and trying to stick with the moves and somehow made it through the end of class.

WOW. Talk about humbling! It has been a L-O-N-G time since I have felt so insecure and uncoordinated! It was actually a fantastic reminder of what hooping class must feel like for the absolute beginner who really just can't get it, and even worse, completely wipes out! It is so easy to take for granted that students in class even feel comfortable being there ... when in reality perhaps someone who just can't get it may be counting the minutes until they can escape.

I also realized that I often pinpoint a student who needs help and repeatedly address them in class... but perhaps that actually may not feel good to that student! Sometimes I have taken for granted that personal attention is always helpful. Also, commanding someone who is frowning in frustration to be "happy" could shake them out of their funk ... or it could push them to sink into it further. Good to remember .... perhaps encouraging something more like stretching the mouth, or sticking out their tongues (instead of saying "smile!") or breathing deeply could help provide ways to help happiness spontaneosly happen instead of just commanding people to be there.

Anyways, I am sort of chuckling thinking about how all this went down, now. As always, life presents so many opportunities for learning.

December 31, 2006

Manifestation and Miracles

This morning on the treadmill, I listed to an Apple music store download of the unabridged book, "The Secret". WOW. Everyone, get this! It is over four hours long (twice the length of the movie). It is fantastic to leave playing while you are cleaning and organizing. It really drives the material into your cells to listen to it (in addition to watching the movie.. What a great way to start the year.

I love New Years. It is the one time of the year where the collective consciousness stops to visualize and set intentions. What an awesome time!

In preparation, I have cleaned out my closet. I pulled everything out which I am clearly not using. I pulled old shoes from the shoe rack that are no longer destined for my feet. I cleaned up and made lots of space! I have the feeling that 2007 is going to bring a lot of abundance.

Now it is bath and journaling time! I want to really relax and take some time to envision what I would like to manifest in 2007.

Honestly, I feel so good about this work I do. I feel so lucky to be able to inspire so many people with hula hooping. What a miracle! In gratitude, I gave a student a full scholarship to attend the 6 week HoopGirl Workout starting this coming wednesday. She had written to me about what a hard time she was having in her life right now, and how badly she wanted to be there. How something very challenging happened to her and now she was ready to make a change in her life.

I think sometimes we need to create miracles around us in thankfulness for all the miracles that come our way... it feels so good!


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