Today was day #2 in the second HoopGirl Teacher Training Program I have instructed. Every class is a revelation. The material gets more textured and concise. The drills and exercises more in depth. The manual seems to flex and grow. It is like we are a living laboratory exploring how to really transform lives, one woman at a time.

I feel so blessed these women (Sara, Robin, Dawn, Rosie, Frankie, Nanette, Ember, and Natasha) took a leap of faith to attend - many of them never having even met me in person.

The material is evolving in exciting ways. In addition to having hoopdance principles and moves included in the 12 day HoopGirl Workout cirriculum, we have added different aspects of body systems to each day. This provides a very tangible and rich source of inspiration for teachers to describe dance movement with language which celebrates the body. Horay for bodies! Horay for pleasure! Horay for feeling good.

The material is exciting because it is so tangible. It is accessible. It is exciting because it is about feeling, sensing and expressing in original and unique ways. It is such a spectacular journey to be a teacher! Being a teacher is like being a mystic and having to convey your love of spirit with poetry. It is the same with dance... you describe how to get to the place of moving with the hoop without thought ... from a place of connection and total beingness in the now.

Thank you universe for this amazing opportunity! I am in gratitude and thankful that demand is growing so rapidly for this teaching. I invite those who can help me grow and expand in a healthy way to enter my life. I invite alies who can help me share the HoopGirl teacher training with more and more people to make themselves known my life. I embrace community and an entire circle of powerful women who bring rich beauty and knowlegdge into my life. I embrace being a leader who is creating many leaders to transform the world in life affirming and spectacular ways! Thank you!

I have decided to rename what I might otherwise call, "difficult", "confronting" or "depressing" to more positive languaging.

So I have been having some "almost fantastic" days.

In these almost fantastic days, I have been looking at myself in the mirror and feeling pretty down on myself. My body did expand after the 2 weddings and letting go of any healthy eating and workout regimen, returning to overwork afterwards and getting into the habit of drinking a glass of wine many nights a week. In the end, I looked in the mirror yesterday and didn't really feel so good.

Ironic, since I mentioned in my newsletter that is officially, "Love your Body Month". I realize that reminding women to love their bodies really is my path since it has so much personal energy wrapped up with it. It is my own work.

So, first step is that I recognize that I am in this place. I've given myself some days off to re-center. I am also commiting to using only empowering language about myself and this place of confusion. Soon, "almost fantastic" will certainly become "fantastic".

Great All that is, I am full of gratitude for the ability to change and become what I envision. I see myself becoming more and more aware of all the ways I can improve my quality of life. I am so happy to be given so many things to appreciate! I am especially full of thankfulness for this amazing, healthy, youthful body which renews and replenishes itself with my loving care. I see myself taking steps to become more vibrant -- more daily exercise, long walks with remarkable friends, retreats, healthy eating with at home cooking, lots of water, bubble baths, love and hooping! Thank you for surrounding me with flocks of angelic beings and radiant light to protect and restore my body on all levels! I see myself fully transformed, healed and integrated. I see myself energetically, emotionally, physically and spiritually doing the divine work I have been given on a much higher level than ever before. I see my own balance, joy and health overflowing so I have a bounty to share with all who surround me! I see myself moving forward surrounded endlessly by grace and love. Thank you!!!!

I had a phone session with Dawn today. She practices Theta Healing .. basically working with Creator to restructure beliefs at a cellular level.

I'll share my new beliefs... it is just a list I want to contemplate...

I compare myself to no one because I know I am on my own divine path.
I run my business from Creator's perspective, unlimited, expansive and perfect!
I balance love, play and joy with my life work.
I pay attention to my surroundings. I notice when I move off-center and easily return.
I balance the fast pace of city life with restorative, nurturing, grounding activties.
It is easy for me to return to my center with joy.
I have downloaded how my business will unfold over the next 10 years divinely. Since I have chosen it, there is no rush to get there!
I recognize when I am out of snyc with myself and I come back with ease.
I understand how worry creates dis-ease and I consciously choose joy and health!
I can manipulate the laws of time to do more with less effort and more grace.
I have Creator's perspective on time ~ it is unlimited!
I have lots of quality time for my husband and an lots of precious alone time for me too!
My self love and time spent on me gives me clarity about everything on my mind.
I schedule appointments and breaks for "me-time" in every day and week.
Paying off my debts is effortless because I have Creator's perspective on debt... it is just energy I have chosen to hold so I can learn to move more energy!
I stay centered in my own belief systems regardless of who I communicate with.
I am true to my truth!
I easily integrate new belief systems instantly!
I choose to feel joy and celebration about taking time off.
I work shorter amounts of time and I know exactly when to stop for my own wellbeing.
When I am taking time off I am in the present moment.
I enjoy spontaneously relaxing.
I tend to my physical body with lots of vitamins.
I know the difference between work and overwork and I choose health and joy!
I listen to the voice of my body when it asks for rest and relaxation.
I work while being in the present moment.
I view my entire life from Creator's perspective.
I see myself the way Creator sees me.
I love myself!
I honor myself by noticing when I am out of balance... and I easily take action.
I am completely in love with myself and my life all the time.
Creator teaches me to motivate myself from love and joy.
I embrace being a leader who leads with love, beauty, joy and integrity!
With every breath I move from truth and goodness.
I let Creator show me how to be a role model, teaching from the All-That-Is.
Leadership is fun and good because I do it with joy, compassion and radiance.
I lead from unconditional love and presence.
I look to Creator when I need guidance of how to be a good leader.

My pocket size list of what brings me back into flow: yoga, meditation, prayer, time spent with amazing women, walks, the gym, hooping, dancing, sharing love, organizing my space, baths, hot springs, hiking, tending to my physical body, cooking.

Thank you Universe for such a remarkable healing!

Since Dawn's session I have been reading an amazing book called, "Excuse Me, Your Life is Waiting" by Lynn Grabhorn. WOW. In it she discusses the amazing power of FEELINGS to attract into our lives whatever we let ourselves dwell upon-- good or bad.

We do create our own destiny! It is a knowing I have always had... but sometimes it is more of an abstract idea than a nuts and bolts reality. Reading this book has reminded me that "you get exactly what you feel" and that we need to flex our feeling muscles to consciously create our desires. She encourages lots of role playing with one's self, telling yoruself stories of how great and amazing it is to actually be currently living in the situation which you most desire -- actually changing the vibration of where you are at to resonate with what you want. Kind of like the prayers I have been writing in this blog...

This is fantastic news for hoopdance performers and teachers! Simply tell yourself (or your students) a story over time which will bring exactly what is desired...

I see my dancing becoming more and more intuitive! I am dancing completely in beat with the music. My arms and legs move as if a higher force has taken me over and Creator is shining through me! I can feel my body radiating joy and enthusiasm. It feels so good to smile so naturally and to make the hoop move in such mesmerizing ways with so little effort. My body is light as a feather as I spring up high and move with the grace of a gazelle. My muscles are lean and strong as I launch up and move through elaborate moves with grace and ease. My whole body is vibrating in response to the music and my head, shoulders, arms and hands trace out mystical shapes with their pulsations. My feet are telling a story to the ground, punctuated by leaps and kicks with energized limbs. The hoop orbits my body on all angles, moving rapidly through brilliant rotations in a blur. My breathing is deep and my awareness is cenetered, even though I am moving at the speed of light. Time is slowing down in my mind's eye as I smile at those watching and send their hearts bursts of goodness from mine. It feels amazing to be in connection with everything at this level. I feel plugged into an infinite energy source. I feel all my cells healing and my organs and body systems working in symphony to function on a higher, more refined level. Everything makes sense and I feel like a magnet, drawing celebration, love, gratitude and abundance to myself. Life is wonderful!

My doctor told me something funny. She said, "You are the Goose that lays the golden egg." Then she asked me how I would treat such a magical beast if I had one. I said, "well, I'd pamper it!". So I'm learning to do that for myself again so I've got some gold to give.

Reminders to self which are percolating into my DNA strands...inspired by another session with Dawn~
I am ready for anything!
I am perfectly prepared to handle anything!
I let go and let God.
I make time to do that which I love.
I flood my body with unconditional love.
I am completely worthy of everything I have ever wanted in my whole life.
I am worthy of unconditional love.
I feel what it is like to be motivated from joy, happiness and love.
It is possible to be motivated from enthusiasm and passion.
I am worthy of a vacaction!
I take time to do the things I love and enjoy.
I savor every moment of enjoying my life.
I know the difference between my emotions and my husband's emotions.
I know the difference between my life path and my husband's life path.
I know the differene between my energy and my husband's energy.
I can be married and still centered in my own emotions, life path and energy.
It is possible to be married and still on my own journey.
It is easy for me to come back to a place of abundance and positivity.
I know how to recognize a natural state of beingness which is love, happiness and peacefulness.
I stay centered in my natural state regardless of who is in my surroundings.
I know what it is like to be centered and how to know if I am.
My definition of "centered" is the same as Creator's definition of "centered".
I trust that my relationship with my husband is always a place of mutal understanding and support.
I teach my body to be free of dis-ease.
I understand dis-ease without having it -- I feel and experience the emotions of having it to clear it.
I understand my emotions.
I live my life without judging myself.
I live my life without judging my thoughts.
I allow the negative to pass and hold my attention on the positive.
I know the difference between focusing on thoughts and holding my attention on the emotions I want.
I focus on the emotions I want to feel from Creator's perspective.
I acknowledge my own success!
I recognize when I have made great progress.
I often take a moment to see how far I have come in life and feel good about it.
I know how to live life without feeling alone.
I am always connected to Creator!
I am connected to all of life!
I am surrounded by a spectacular community of high vibration friends.
I move forward with grace and with determination while in collaboration with others.
I am motivated from a feeling of connectedness.
I live a grand life, sharing the journey with many friends and loved ones.
I teach every cell in my body that I am always connected to the All That Is.
I am motivated by a feeling of togetherness.
I can have a deep spiritual practice while being married.
I experience spirituality and love within community.
I know how to do and have this experience in a human body.
I am worthy of close friendships which are in my highest and best good.
I know how to recognize spiritual allies instantly.
Creator shows me how to manifest soul mate friendships in my life now.
I trust my heart magnetizes inspiring people to me.
I have Creator's perspective on the truth of who I am.
I consciously choose to draw really amazing people into my life.
I see all the phoenomenal friends who surround me and make time to connect with them.
I tell my friends how much I appreciate them.
I know how to create my own environment, circle of friends, community and pod and how to keep evolving with it for the highest good.
My job is to be myself.
It is effortless to be magnetized to the perfect environments and people.

Thank you!!!!!!!!!

I'm in London! It's rainy. It's so multicultural! So many Africans and Asians! The first question my driver (from Ghana) asked me when I got off the plane was, "so how do the Americans feel about all this US goverment action in Iraq?" Talk about dropping right into reality! The US is in a bubble. The rest of the world is horrified by our actions.

I fumbled my way through an answer and it made me think of the movie I saw last weekend, "The Last King of Scotland", about niave do-gooders, the complexity of curruption in Africa and basically genocide.

These are not topics hula hoopers I know generally discuss. We talk hoop moves. We talk about joy and love. We talk bootie shorts. We talk about the latest sparkles. New MAC makeup. We talk cute costumes. We talk about being sexy and having fun and enjoying our bodies. We talk about saving the world with hula hoops.

After I watched that movie I had a meltdown. I was utterly shattered and literally felt guilty in my gut that I have been able to live such a priveledged, joyous life while millions have died during my lifetime from unspeakable atrocities.

How do we reconcile that? How can we live in our little bubble of joy without letting ourselves feel the truth and know the reality of what is happening outside our country? How can it be some people's destiny to live in such a short painful way? And what does that mean about each of these people's connection to Divine Source? How can any of these people have fewer tendrils of electromagnetic energy enfolding them in a larger supercosmic plan of human evolution? Why them and not us?

I cried about it in Kramer's arms, we said a prayer for world peace together, and went to bed. In the morning I read more of that book, "Excuse me, your life is waiting" and realized that the change begins with each of us being an epicenter of peace.

Peace in my conversations - listening deeply and without the need to be right. Peace in my relationships - letting go of unresolved resentment and forgiving everyone for everything. Peace in my work - making the creation of high vibration good feelings the center of my philosophy. Peace in my community - letting go of competativeness. Peace in my home - keeping things tidy and organized. Basically, I realized I can be the difference every moment of every day by radiating peace!

So that is the sense I am making of the chaos.

Great Source of Wellbeing which is eternally available to us... thank you! Thank you for all the blessings which surround me. I am so grateful for the inspiring people who surround me at every turn. I am full of gratitude for the reminders to be emotionally available in every moment and present with those I love. I am so happy that my life is becoming an epicenter of peace, sending out ripples of love, joy and serenity. Thank you for helping me find the stillness within so I have something authentic to share with others...

Today was FABULOUS! Not really a rest day... I had my first full blown rehersal of my "Hulaerobics" (not my name choice!) script from start to finish this morning to the music which the DVD will be set to. I realy didn't know what the director would think, but he loved it! I'm so glad. I have to admit I was a bit nervous. It seems like such a big project with so many people involved -- like the commercial, an exploration in a whole new direction. He said I was a total natural on camera and that it would be a breeze! Also that he genuinely found my script inspiring... after having filmed dozens of other fitness videos which were not. So horay! Success is here! Seems I will be coming back here in december and january as well for pr work... so the adventure continues! thank you universe!

Yesterday was amazing. Honestly, I had quite a bit of nerves-- for whatever reason, I was a bit overwhelmed energetically. I kept recentering myself with my breath though and made it through. Though I felt a bit self conscious, everyone said I didn't come off that way at all. So I suppose that is all that matters! The set was spectacular... like MTV!

Today is day two and I feel fantastic. A great night's sleep and good thoughts I sent ahead have really helped. I am actually really excited! I think it is going to be a lot of fun and I am SO grateful to have been given the opportunity to be a part of this project with HeartFM. THANK YOU UNIVERSE! I am just so happy that everyone is so supportive and excited about the project. From top to bottom, it has just felt fantastic and so well put together.

It is just so synchronistic that their entire philosophy is based on "feeling good" -- the same phrase I use over and over again with my teachers as our number one company goal - to help students and customers feel good! Also, the fact that I have used the phrase -- "hoop your heart out" and that they asked me to use that phrase felt perfect.

Anyways... I better go and prepare for the day. By the way... the commercial I shot for Heart is going to have it's first airing tonight in the middle of some famous soap opera... gosh I wish I could remember the name... day by day? if I find out soon enough I will post back.

Thank you Source of All for all the energy and vitality you are sending to me today. Thank you for keeping me constantly aware that I can relax and let a higher force move through me. Thank you for reminding me I am ready for anything and that I deserve and am worthy of success! I am so full of gratitude for this fabulous opportunity and all the future opportunities it will open up for me. I am so happy that I can just enjoy the process and let it be effortless and fun. Thank you for helping the idea of feeling good permeate every pore of my being so that I can inspire others to do the same. Thank you for helping me breathe deeply to bring myself back to center. Gratitude for such wonderful, helpful and genuine people who are surrounding me at every turn. Thank you for everything!!!

What more can I say? WOW. From the deepest part of my being.

I was abolsuetly exhausted by the end, but I gave it every ounce of energy I had, and then some! What a fabulous project. On the last day of the DVD shoot I was able to relax a lot more and just flow. I just sort of emptied out everything I had to give to it and it felt good... especially to have that giving recognized by the director and everyone else on set. I suppose most people they work with to do these projects rely on teleprompters, but I just memorized everything and went for it~ which they said made it all much more natural and easy to work with. We had spontaneous ideas and just went for it right on the spot and I am positive the project will be a phenomenal success!

It was non stop, from 9am until 6pm, but we did it! I feel so full of gratitude for this opportunity. I have this luminous, deep inner knowing that something about this project is going to change my entire life in a remarkable way.

I am sending up lots of love to the Universe! Thank you, thank you, thank you! Thank you for helping me move through the unknown with grace and inner strength. Thank you for surrounding me with supportive, talented people at every turn! Thank you for showing me that I can accomplish anything I can imagine. I am in love with life! I am so grateful for the creative process, and for all the gifts I have been given.