It is so important to have an agent! I have been negotiating with a commercial gig in South Africa over the past week and it has been a bit intense. If I simply had a representative from an agency negotiating on my behalf, I wouldn't have to guestimate at how much I should get paid for this and that... it is foreign to me. While i have negotiated performances in other countries, never a commercial project for European TV. I don't know the going rate or my rights, though my girlfriend Sass did give me some idea of what to bargain for.
When you are negotiating on behalf of yourself, your hopes soar and then plummet as details seem to change at every moment. Communication is tough since London is is a very different time zone... 7 or 8am is usually when I get calls or emails from them.
They actually want me to fly out of Reno on monday following Burning Man (after my Burning Man wedding) and fly me directly back to Connecticut the following wednesday so I can make my second wedding ceremony on the Saturday following. It is nuts! I'm worried that Kramer (my fiancee) thinks I care more about my career than him. I'm worried that I may be placing too much value on this opportunity and letting it distract me from a very precious and wonderful time in my life.
Marriage. WOW. No longer putting yourself first in all things.
As a hoopdancer who has always longed to break into the commercial sector, I feel compelled to jump at this opportunity. A commercial! The commercial work is where the true financial compensation is. I've been busting my butt for 5 years to get where I am. At the same time, what is more important? Career success and money, or love? Why do such wonderful opportunities always seem to come at the same time?
I give thanks and gratitude to the Universe for all the wonderful gifts which I am blessed to recieve. Thank you!!! I know that clarity about the perfect course of action is on it's way to me. I know that opportunities are limitless, abundant and overflowing in my life. I make my decisions from love and a feeling of connection to the Divine. I relax and breathe deeply, knowing that all is well and all will be well in my world and in my new blissful journey as a life partner and wife. I am happy and energized by my confidence. The perfect realization is coming to me at the perfect moment. I make decisions from a place of serenity, connection and trust.