Welcome to my blog-hoop-world! I hope to fill this blog to positive, empowering and inspirational messages for hoopers around the world. Also some of the more challenging aspects about the reality of hooping as a professional. May I grow into a bigger, brighter self from this endeavor and may you hear exactly what you need to take your life and hooping to the next level! Here we go world -- the complete uncensored Christabel!

Life is miraculously wonderful for me now, but honestly overwhelming. I've got 2 marriages on my plate, as well as a commercial shoot in South Africa, an exploding internet business, an unfinished instructional video, a new performance troupe, various teacher trainings and classes and much, much more. It is too much for one woman to handle! Days pass so quickly. I rise at 6:30 and go to the gym, then somehow end up sitting at my computer working on what feels like ridiculous detail oriented administrative work for hours, until I leave to do errands, hoop or teach. Then back, always back to this computer drawn by some invisible umbilical cord to check on customer inquiries, gigs and more. Day after day is passing this way. I'm hungry for some self nourishment, some play time and some reflection. There are bigger projects that need my attention and I keep getting distracted.

I'm at a point where I realize I cannot continue on as things have been before. I realize I must grow and I am feeling some resistance. I need help-- administrators, teachers, business advisors and more, as my company is growing and expanding. My original business plan has been fulfilled. Now I need to take it to the next level.

I ask divine Source for some healthy space in my life to grow and fulfil my highest potential. I pray with gratitude for all the wonderful resources and divine assistance already on it's way to me at light speed! The perfect people are coming into my life who can help my life's work expand for the benefit of humanity. I know I am never given more than I can open to recieve. I pray for clarity about my direction, knowing that all is well in my world and that there is a divine, perfect plan unfolding. I can relax, knowing that Source is handling all the details.

Phew! I feel better just writing down those words! Prayer is such a powerful tool for me in centering myself. The challenge is, sometimes when you are in the middle of "overwhelm", it is hard to remember to do it! A book called, ASK AND IT IS GIVEN, has really been helping me remember how to slow down and connect.

Hoopdance is such a wonderful, delicious and sensous path to a feeling of connection. It's so ironic that the more my business has grown, the less time there is to do the very thing I am so passionate about! I must find a way to attract divine support into my life to handle everything that distracts me from my lifework.

Universe! I am asking you for immediate and powerful assistance in handling all the goodness sweeping into my life! I am full of thankfulness for the abundance of positive opportunities, people and experiences. I breathe in a feeling of relaxation and peace, knowing that you are already providing for every need. I inhale deeply and smile, knowing that my clarity is magnetically attracting individuals into my life who can help me serve the world and my own potential in the highest way. Thank you!

It is so important to have an agent! I have been negotiating with a commercial gig in South Africa over the past week and it has been a bit intense. If I simply had a representative from an agency negotiating on my behalf, I wouldn't have to guestimate at how much I should get paid for this and that... it is foreign to me. While i have negotiated performances in other countries, never a commercial project for European TV. I don't know the going rate or my rights, though my girlfriend Sass did give me some idea of what to bargain for.

When you are negotiating on behalf of yourself, your hopes soar and then plummet as details seem to change at every moment. Communication is tough since London is is a very different time zone... 7 or 8am is usually when I get calls or emails from them.

They actually want me to fly out of Reno on monday following Burning Man (after my Burning Man wedding) and fly me directly back to Connecticut the following wednesday so I can make my second wedding ceremony on the Saturday following. It is nuts! I'm worried that Kramer (my fiancee) thinks I care more about my career than him. I'm worried that I may be placing too much value on this opportunity and letting it distract me from a very precious and wonderful time in my life.

Marriage. WOW. No longer putting yourself first in all things.

As a hoopdancer who has always longed to break into the commercial sector, I feel compelled to jump at this opportunity. A commercial! The commercial work is where the true financial compensation is. I've been busting my butt for 5 years to get where I am. At the same time, what is more important? Career success and money, or love? Why do such wonderful opportunities always seem to come at the same time?

I give thanks and gratitude to the Universe for all the wonderful gifts which I am blessed to recieve. Thank you!!! I know that clarity about the perfect course of action is on it's way to me. I know that opportunities are limitless, abundant and overflowing in my life. I make my decisions from love and a feeling of connection to the Divine. I relax and breathe deeply, knowing that all is well and all will be well in my world and in my new blissful journey as a life partner and wife. I am happy and energized by my confidence. The perfect realization is coming to me at the perfect moment. I make decisions from a place of serenity, connection and trust.

I am in wonder. Last night I taught the 3rd meeting of the Advanced Training to the HoopGirl Allstars -- Nanette, Jessica, Annie, Amanda and Satise. Truley, I am so inspired! Most exciting parts: we did a performance jam where we emphasized arm, hand and finger movements and facial expressions, and another one where we performed transitions between soloists and a final one which was a 3 minute solo on the floor for each dancer. It was remarkable to watch so much percolating creativity and spontaneous theatricality! Every single dancer brought so much feeling and playfulness and such a dynamic range of expression to the performances. We are all learning so much from eachother!

At moments I do feel like i am flying by the seat of my pants. I am running them through drills that I have always fantasized would be so enriching as a performer... and then also going through the same exercise myself and finding that I too have a lot of boundaries to push through!

I guess I put some pressure on myself to really have it all "together" and figured out. I am so thrilled that the ladies are so patient with being a part of the creative process as it unfolds. What a gift! Thanks to the Universe for sending such remarkable women into my life!

Another gift... I spoke to Kramer this morning at length about the commercial. I told him last night I was going to cancel and he strongly advised me to follow through. I spoke to the agency in London. We nudged the dates slightly... I'll fly from Reno the monday following Burning Man and get back to Connecticut on Monday or Tuesday. So I'll have at least 3-4 days before the wedding to get back into emotional shape instead of 2. I'll pack my wedding dress and clothes for Connecticut before I leave for Burning Man and my mom will bring them when she arrives. They will give me the final word on wether the commercial is a go on Monday or Tuesday.

Today is Burning Man prep day! I'm off to do some shopping and assemble costumes before I go off to Santa Rosa tonight to bring the AllStars to their first gig, then rush back to perform at Ruby Skye.... it never stops, but it's all good!

Universe, I ask for a sense of peaceful serenity through these accelerated times of growth and expansion. I know that I am co-creating this reality with the support of divine beings who watch over me and protect me and guide me continually in the direction of positivity and learning. I am so excited and inspired by all the wonderful people and experiences coming into my life! I trust that I will do my best to tend to my own health and wellbeing, so I can contain all the goodness rushing towards me in a healthy and balanced way. Thank you for clarity and helping me trust the process!

WOW! On Saturday night the brand new troupe I am training, the HoopGirl AllStars, had their first performance at a House Party in Santa Rosa. It was a huge success. After we got ready in the green room (otherwise known as the garage... ah! The glamour of it all...) we had a circle where we joined hands and devoted ourselves to just shining brightly and having a wonderful time, carrying ourselves like elegant goddesses and being the life of the party! We went out dazzled them! WOW it was amazing to see each member of the troupe come to life and vibrate at such a high frequency while dancing. They ALL remembered to engage with their smiles, their body language, gestures and more... it was quite a moment for me to watch them and see how much they have opened up to transmitting the frequency of JOY. It is amazing how much they have each moved through boundaries and just blossomed. Everyone looked completely comfortable being the beautiful center of attention while doing such complex moves and carrying themseleves with such grace. I feel inspired by each and every dancer to continue to develop my own dance even further. Throughout it all, Amanda (who was unable to perform due to a medical issue) was holding the energy beautifully, taking pictures, handing out cards and generally looking gorgeous as our "manager" -- providing a wonderful realization that we need a mother-hen/public relations person like that at every event.

Thank you Universe for sending such amazing women into my life. I am so excited about the talent and skills which continue to unfold around and within me. I anticipate a level of creative unfolding beyond anything I have ever experienced in my life. I am so grateful!